From bad to god to worse.
By EsmeraldaB
@EsmeraldaB (309)
United States
July 3, 2009 9:59pm CST
I can go from bad to god to worse in one hour.I don't mean I just do.If its small I can make it big if its big I can make it huge if it huge I can kill you with it.I don't want to but the words just come out and then I cant stop.I say one thing then a another,and I know I should not say any thing.I try that but my face gives me away,I look mad and then some one ask why am I so mad,what did they do?I go off,I become my dad.This thing of mean things to say so I can win.The thing is when I do when win I really wished I lost.What can I do to make sure no one has to win or lose?
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@Rosekitty (19368)
• San Marcos, Texas
4 Jul 09
I'm a friend of your Stepdad's to start and nice to meet you!
When you are young, you speak first before you think so words you don't want to say come out and then you feel bad for saying them.
Its something we all went through as youngsters..Now its up to you to stop and think and figure out why you do this and if you really want to change..Change is good and harder then just doing the same old thing, so it will be tough, but if you really want to be different then only you can do that..write the things down that you want to change and practise changing one thing at a time..soon it will be easier and you will find you aren't the mean person you think you are now and winning or losing won't matter..what will matter is how you feel about yourself and realising you are a sweet and kind young Lady who is just growing up.
huggs and love
Rosekitty
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@TheGreatWhiteBuffalo (4822)
• United States
4 Jul 09
You need to read some of my writings, the stresses that break you will also strengthen you.
Of this I know...
The first rule of thumb is to keep communicating but learn to communicate in a way that will not escalate a bad situation.
Yes, it is all part of learning to be a grown up.
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@fwidman (11514)
• United States
4 Jul 09
It's just your age, dear. I know you probably don't think that's true, but it really is. As you get a little older your brain will start to override your mouth. If not, you are going to get into a lot of fights where you will lose and so will the person you're fighting with as you'll both say nasty things you don't mean. Either that or you will get your butt kicked a lot and you certainly don't want that :(
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