How would You Feel If You Were Cut Off From Your Grandchildren? Help!

Hi Bird, I like your straight forwardness! I too get right to the point. Believe me I have been super nice and know better than to piss off the mother of your Grandchild too. My Mom use to always say what comes around goes around. I can remember not being so nice to my ex mother-in-law and for what? I was just plain jealous of how spoiled my ex was by her.So because of the love she had for her son I took it out on her threw the grand kids. Oh believe u me she could take the boys anytime she wanted too. That was the problem she wouldn't.in fact none of them did . I kinda don't blame her because the were like ransom of red chief those 2 boys together . So I guess i am just getting a taste of Carma. I am always nice to Julia and my son. I have tried over & over again to contact them,but no luck in getting either one of them to responded back. Yes there is a bad history in the past with my kids due to my addiction problem back then. My sister -in-law took over raising them when they were 7&8 yrs old. But as far as the baby stages NO one would go near Scott! he was very hard to handle and was for ever getting into stuff. Brian was always with my mom and I am sure Scott wanted to be with other families members and could not understand why he was not taken over night and Brian was. Scott and I were so close due to this. But since he went to lou-ann's it hasn't been the same. I am sober & clean today and it took me 20yrs to get there too. My son Scott noticed a big change in me just by talking on the phone and he was so happy too. Until the his wife kinda step in and runs the show. I know for a fact that her home life in Germany is no different than it was in Scott's home life when he was little and with me. They all live with her parents and I can see her Mom does a lot of the raising with Joshua too. So all I can do is hope and pray that some day my son will come around and realize I am a good mother today & grandmother .