No light at the end of the tunnel

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Afternoon my fellow myLotters, Today is a horrible day. I found out that the one of the most important person (a family member) in my life is talking behind my back even though she doesn't know the whole story. She doesn't know the whole story and yes I am unemployed but right now those who I have helped are helping me in my time of need. She doesn't understand that. Don't get me wrong I know she cares but come on!!! What hurt me the most is she is involving others that have no business being involved!!! She wants me to separate from those who are keeping me afloat mentally, spiritual and just are there. :( Something like this just hurts me so much!!! It makes all the advice that she gives me go right out the window. I am doing what I can but it never seems like enough. I just have come to the end of my rope and can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I sometimes wonder if it would be better if I wasn't here. That's not the way to be thinking but sometimes it just seems like that would be the best thing. :( NO IT'S NOT!!! I can't give up! I must push on! I will win this battle! Sorry to rant but needed to get it off my chest and since I was here...I figured I share my day. :) Oh well, I hope everyone else is having a fabulous day!!! Happy myLotting!!!