Just can't take it anymore

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I am fed up. I am so stressed out I just can't take it anymore and I don't know how to calm down. As some of you know, I live in an apartment (which I hate) with my 15 year old son. The summer time is the worst here. Noise outside my door (screaming noisy little and big kids) and constant noise above me from my neighbor. I have been hibernating in my bedroom because I have a very noisy box fan and another fan in there. I hang sheets on the windows so no one can peek in, and I do that for a good reason. People and kids do all the time. There is never any privacy here. I fear my dream of getting out of here will never happen because hardly any landlords accept pets and people who are on rental assistance. I hate being on it, and I am so angry at who ever made me sick with these conditions so I can't work. And my depression is about 95% bad right now. I keep praying I will be approved for disability so I can move out of here. The only reason I took this place was cause my mom said I had to get out of her house (she wanted to be alone after my dads death) and this was the only place that took pets. My son deserves to live in a house at this age. And he can't do his homework here cause of all the noise. He nearly failed 9th grade last year. I just feel that nothing is ever going to get better for me. Why are all these bad things happening? I have never been this far down in the hole before. And I feel as if I can't get out. SOmeone is pushing me down further. I wish I had money to buy a house then I would never have to rent again and deal with all of this. Shouldn't a person be allowed to be happy? The only thing besides my son that makes me happy is my kitty, and I want more kitties. I was born with such a great love for them and since I am alone, with out a man in my life, that is what makes me happy. I don't know how to get rid of this misery. You people that live in houses are sooooo lucky.