depression ? it kills my ambition
By ysobelle
@ysobelle (202)
Philippines
July 18, 2009 3:46am CST
I never achieved any profession, i felt not loved by my family. I'm hooked with the feelings of depression to the point that i spent many sleepless night, shed many tears, always thinking of negative thoughts, i find it hard to move on. I can't find the ways to recover this illness. I believe I can still find the ways to recover if i can get some support and attention specially from my family.
3 responses
@sksharma267 (31)
• India
18 Jul 09
My Dear Ysobelle
You have such a huge family which is so very eager to be with you in your sunshine and in your deluge. We are your brothers, sisters and friends. Over 177,000 of us. You trust us. We are all trustworthy. And now that you have opened up to us, see what we can do for you.
For the starters please follow this advice of mine. (Hope you are below 65 years of age).
I want you to start taking exercises regularly, in a gym. And it should be taken to about one hour and thirty minutes a day, starting with about 30 minutes and then slowly raising it to over an hour.
But promise that you will, while taking the exercises, not think of anything else.
And every day after the exercise, please do write back to me as to what all did you do. How much of sweat you had and which all muscles began to pain. And also how many people were there and which of the gym equipments were functioning properly and which were not. Did you make any new friends. I am not deliberately asking you to tell me as to how you felt everyday after the exercise routine. That will come up later on.
I want it to happen seven days a week, come rain, hail, snow and/or sleet. If the gym is closed on any particular day, then it is not my responsibility. You will have to find alternate ways to exercise. But no absences please.
I must hear from you today onwards everyday. And why only me? Please tell all other friends you have.
With lots of love.
@sksharma267 (31)
• India
18 Jul 09
Many thanks for your kind selection.
But I am deeply interested to know what you decided, please.
@sksharma267 (31)
• India
18 Jul 09
And one more thing. Please do not allow the fire of ambition to die down, under any circumstance.
Hoping to hear much more from you, fast, please.
@ysobelle (202)
• Philippines
20 Jul 09
There are lots of factors why i felt so depressed,, I find it hard to talk with my family, because since i was young they let me feel that i'm an unwanted child, maybe because the time that my mother conceived me they were facing a lot of crisis in life. I want ot pursue college but they didn't give me a chance, i work for myself,away from them and they didn't mind it, it's a long story to tell, until i became a single mom because no one's there to guide me. When i came back home they still accepted me but thier words are hurting until now, I still love them. I do believe I could still recover, just waitng for the right time to talk with my family. Thaks for all the concern, I find belongingness in this site.. God's blessing.
@FlaKNMB (831)
• United States
19 Jul 09
I see that you are from the Philippines. Do you have psychiatrists, psychologists and/or counselors there? I would advise you to seek professional help. Long-term depression like you describe is caused by an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. If you talk to a professional, he or she will be able to determine whether you need prescription medicine or not. Sometimes this is necessary to get the chemicals back in balance.
Like you, I've never felt loved by my family. One day I realized that they might not be able to love me the way that I need to be loved, but they were loving me in the best way they knew how to. They were giving me the most that they could give.
I wish you the best! Depression can be a deep, dark cloud hanging over your head. I hope you get some relief.
@proxima14 (196)
• Philippines
18 Jul 09
Talk to your family. Tell them how you feel. They won't be able to help you if you expect them to know without you telling them
