Emotional Stresses Will Break You

United States
August 8, 2009 6:33pm CST
I suffer anxiety and stress and depression, and it has been really bad over the last year. I have become someone I don't even know at times, carrying a lot of this as mood swings, paranoia, and extreme panic attacks, and it has in fact altered my life quite a bit. Do you suffer from any smiliar disorder? (Whether ever being diagnosed or not) I have major attributes to why I feel this way-some dating all the way to when I was a small child, some things have happened to me as adult, all of which have blatantly made me nuts at times. (Although the doctors don't label me nuts, I sure feel that way at times!) I would say my biggest problems stem from self esteem issues and how I feel so crappy about myself and around certain people. I guess I am just looking to see how common of a thing this really is and also if you had had these low points in your life how you got through them.
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@dazedaze (108)
9 Aug 09
i had a terrible post partum depression which i struggled with with 11 months until getting diagnosed with a clinical depression. I do, however, remember having anxieties most of my life. I remember it started as young as 5 yrs. old when i started going to kindergarten. Every time I saw the yellow school bus I puked since I was terrified of people. I had social anxiety disordered. It continued all the way until I was in High School .It went away. I have had self esteem issues all my life. But, going back to the depression, exercise, finding a support group, and engaging in a hobby really helped. ALso, prozac did the rest of it to regulate my hormones and keep me energized throughout the day. I've been on it for over a year. Good luck!
• United States
9 Aug 09
I don't think I suffered from post partum depression, but I may have, as my third pregnancy had alot of emotional and physical issues that I had to endure. I am starting to wonder if I have some symptoms of a social disorder as well, only because I seem to be a homebody more and more and dislike goin gplaces more and more too. I don't want to give in quite yet though-but dealing with all this madness is a lot to take on at times.
@imsilver (1665)
• Canada
9 Aug 09
I get through them with medication. I've had to learn that asking for help is not a weakness but rather a strength. I've also learned to recognize when I'm getting out of control and to go to the doctors and get the pills. Most of the time I van get by with just an anti-anxiety pill when I need it but once in a while I need that daily pill for a few months until I'm back on an even keel. I find that rather than going to councelling with someone who doesn't know me; it's easier to find my closest friend and vent over coffee.
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• United States
9 Aug 09
Yea I've been there to, seems i've felt this way all my life, I've been on a few different meds the past 10 years the latest is effexor I feel like I'm on auto pilot no ups but some downs just not way down unless I run our then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I have anxiety also and take colisapam (think I spelled it right) it helps with the anxiety, I only take 0.5 ml two times a day. The only thing that will help u is to find the right med that work for u. Always know u are Not alone there are sooo many our there suffering with the same thing. I'm here if u ever need to talk. Liz
@lynnemg (4529)
• United States
9 Aug 09
It is nice to know that I really am not alone in the world. I have been diagnosed with depression for several years, my current doctor told me that I am severely depressed and really need to remain on the medication that is seeming to help for 6 months to 2 years to really get a handle on it and have less of a chance of relapsing. I have times when I feel good, but most days, I can hardly stand looking at myself ina mirror. I get stressed out very easily, and things seem to build up in me quicker than many other people. I have horrible self-esteem when it comes to the way I look, on the brighter side, I have a high self-esteem when it comes to things that require the use of my brain. I have been through many things in my life that have been extrememly hard for me. It seems that I get a bit better at getting through the hard times with each experience. I have gotten to the point where I look at the situation and say to myself, "I have been here before, and I have been through worse, I can do this" I may spend a day or two sulking and feeling sorry for myself, but then, I bounce back and find the solution. That is one of my strong points; the ability to figure things out and push forward when many others would have given up. I think that one thing that is really helping me is maintaining a positive attitude even when things really seem hopeless. It took me a long time to get to that point, but now that I am there, things really do seem to be getting better. I don't know if I will ever really overcome my self-esteem issues, but if I can get a good handle on everything else, and remember to find something each day to laugh and smile about, I think that I will do much better overall.
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@clorissa123 (4926)
• United States
9 Aug 09
I certainly understand what you said here. Many people were somehow under many stresses and depression in time. Me too, from work; from relationship; and from family. There were constant stresses all surrounding you all the time. You just have to deal with it. Develop a self - create technique to deal with them. It just you against this world, I guess.
• United States
9 Aug 09
i have suffered from all three of these. i have had tough times and my problem is i never seem to let anything go .. and when i finally seem to come at peace with something thats happened to me someone seems to always bring it up .. i try to live life the best i can and not let things get me down . and even though i try i know sometimes i seem to have turned into a pain in the butt. and i can't explain whats going on with me .. i keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and life will get better and it helps me overcome my depression..
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@justinus (1104)
• Karawaci, Indonesia
11 Aug 09
Hello young woman, let me joint to your discussion. It is my first post after several days absent: three years ago when joint myLot I brought the same problem with your while I was already more than 50 years of age and I got the same syptoms at around your age too! I was depression with different back ground, socially, economically, at developing country. I concluded that I was not supposed get this kind of illness if I was living in beter conditions (I dont mean to blame any former conditions around me because I know perhaps I have my own mistake, one of WHO difinition of mental health is that some one should have capability to adopt situation sorounding them or ajusting himself to their own condition) but morally as young "idealist" it was not easy and there a lot of difference among realities. In free and prosper country like USA I thought I would be easily solve my former problems. (for you) my opinion is just FORGET your past what ever it was, enjoy life and try to be happy take anything easy dont be too serious ! At the first step we perhaps need medicine, prozac or tolvon will help much ...Ok, above all is that I need to post and respond interesting topic, thank you then and good luck.
@mipen2006 (5528)
• Australia
9 Aug 09
I'm sorry to hear that princess. I can relate to self esteem issues, as I suffered from those when I was drinking heavily, after my bitter divorce and property settlement issues. However, I never sought medical assistance. I guess I was lucky, and religiously played a song by Nancy Sinatra and Lee Hazelwood, called, I've been down so long, it looks like up to me. Whether or not that helped me, I don't really know, but I think it helped. It was a way of telling myself I was better than what I was showing. I know this isn't much help for you, but I believe it did help me. Now, I haven't taken a drink in about seventeen years.
@Capsicum (1444)
• United States
9 Aug 09
You certainly are not alone in your feelings.I have lived this way for many years. Your writing sounds like ,I could have wrote it about myself.In the past year ,I have been working very hard to stop these, unjust feelings and fears inside. Self esteem is the hardest ,to overcome it adds to the rest of these feelings. I have found that taking chances with people and getting to know myself has helped a lot.Its not easy ,it takes patients and baby steps.But learning to know what triggers these feelings ,is the first step to feeling better. Since I am still working on these things,its very hard to try to help another.Everyone copes in their own way. I had been on medication for over 20 years,it never has helped only hindered . So learning to be comfy with me is what,I am trying now.It does seem to be helping in making me aware ,of who and what brings these triggers to a head. Good Luck
@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 09
Well if you can introspection. But do not punish yourself. Development of personality is required, but do not become other people. Be yourself. You have the character, different from the others.
• India
9 Aug 09
I have been under anxiety and depression for over 10 years now and even the Doctor's have said they cannot help me.I believe the emotional stresses have really got into me and has ruined my life for good.Hope you have a good time.
• Philippines
10 Aug 09
yes thats true. i've been into that when i broke up with my ex before due to another girl. i was very down and helpless that time. i couldn't eat, i couldn't sleep and my mind is like empty that i couldn't think of what is good. its a 5 years relationship actually and we almost got married but since we cant hold the hands of time then i have not choice but to let go. its for my own happiness to. it took me 1 month before i can recover it. then after that when i meet him again, i feel nothing to him, its like his a total stranger's to me.
@Care4Pets (176)
• United States
9 Aug 09
Princess, you are definitely not alone. Ever since I can remember, I was a worrier and for most of my life, I thought that was normal. However, as I became a teenager, the mood swings and paranoia set in which made my life so much more complicated. For many years, I was able to hold things together outside of my home. School grades didn't suffer, friends had no idea, but I was miserable and my home life and family took a major loss. As I got older and into my mid-20's, I could no longer hide from the truth. I knew I needed help whether or not I was ready to admit I had a problem. Since then, I have been seeing a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder, which basically means I have an irrational fear of normal things at times, for instance thinking that every whisper is a snide remark about me or that people around are constantly judging/looking down on me. I've overcome a lot of this through time, patience, practice, and the right medication. I will say that if you don't feel like the first medication or dosage is working, don't hesitate to tell the doctor. Sometimes, it takes a couple tries. First meds didn't work at all for me, and even this one took two dosage increases to move things forward. Now that I am medicated properly, I have control of my life again. I am able to function both inside and outside my home, get along with my family, and enjoy meeting new people (social functions used to scare the heck out of me!). While I lost some friends that used to be close to me along the way, medicated properly I don't miss them at all, realizing that I used them as a security blanket, a safety net. While it's great to have someone to fall back on (and I still have friends that would be there in an instant for me), I know now that sometimes, some things are better to let go of and leave in the past. Life isn't always perfect, but it's a lot sunnier than it used to be, and on the days that the anxiety creeps in, I just tell myself it's okay to try new things and that successful people fail more often than they succeed. So get out there and fail...tomorrow is another day! Best of luck to you and remember you are a unique, terrific woman!
• United States
10 Aug 09
I commend you for coming so far with your therapy, and it is people like you that can help condition people like me to believe that there is a better way to live! I share a lot of the smae insecurities as you-feeling inferior and that people will constantly look down on me or are talking crap about me or what I do in my life. It is not an easy way to be, but when it's who you are, it's hard to even think of changing. I have lost a lot of friends over the years too, which is not an easy thing to admit for alot of people, including me, because it seems that back then things were better. But in all reality, like you, if they aren't here now then things happened that created parting for some reason. I go to counseling and I am taking now my third trial of anti-dpressants. I am optimistic, but man, I still have quite a few of those days....