Does this happen to you too?
By K.Rajib G.
@krajibg (11922)
Guwahati, India
August 21, 2009 3:49am CST
Hi lotters,
I know my limits and also I know my ability. That now I have been sitting before my PC and mostly doing mylot; may be to increase the number of post or to increase the penny, but whatsoever the cause I am there. I do not indulge myself that much in chatting with the friends here. I am not interested in the PTCs either. Am I bored then? No.
Yes, what I was trying to focus on is individual power and strength and weakness. And I feel somewhere I did not make myself the best of me. I am not too intelligent a person but if I really had striven hard may be I would not be what I am today. No, I am not sorry for this. But in my retrospection when I reckon things, a numbing feeling creeps in, but it is momentary.
Now please do not jump into any conclusion that I have gone depressed. Just wish to share if you too have this sometime.
love
Rajiv.
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12 responses
@ketybhagat (4123)
• India
21 Aug 09
Hi rajib, I can understand your dilema. There are many many occassions in life when we feel we could have done better, or let an opportunity slip away because of want of enthusiasm etc. and have regreted the same. It happens to me too and i suppose to many of us. We dont grab the opportunity when it comes knocking, and then we sit back and repent. We do not make full use of our knowledge or skills. Its sad but true. For the lucky, opportunities fall in their laps and they just pick it up and use it. For most of us, its a long struggle. But no matter what, we only get what we have been destined to, so lets take solace in that. Its not depression as you so rightly say, just a feeling of immense sadness for not having reached the pinnacle of success which so rightly belongs to us. Cheers.
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@ketybhagat (4123)
• India
24 Aug 09
I guess we sh ould thank God for all the mercies He has showered on us. We are so much better off than the others. Yes, with the mylot family around us, we can be sure of consolation and smile when needed. Good luck pal.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
25 Aug 09
Ketty, you seem to be really a jovial entity. Good to have friends like you. Happy go lucky.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
21 Aug 09
Hi Ketty,
i am sorry but you are partially right in saying that I am in dilemma. No, not any dilemma. This is a just a flicker of the probably fleeting mind that goes for retrospection and is prompted to the conscious mind that this or that could have been possible if this or that had happened but...this but is all is reflected here I guess.
Me not unhappy but just a thought that hit my mind in its delicate moments. Yes I am happy what I am now and have hardly ( never) regretted that I could have been better than this.
yes life would ever get ignited when friends like you are there to bring solace and smile to the lips.
@dragon54u (31634)
• United States
21 Aug 09
I feel that, too. I've had many "failures" in my life and made a lot of poor judgments. I feel that sitting here day after day striving for pennies and dollars, trying to make ends meet and have enough so I don't live in poverty once I'm old. I don't want to live with my children--not because I don't love them, but because I want to be independent. I feel there is no purpose in my life. Someday, when the economy recovers--if it recovers--I may be blessed with a real job and this feeling might abate a little.
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@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
21 Aug 09
Hi there,
If for nothing at all I too regret for poor and hopeless judgments. Other parts of the numbness is momentary feeling and the night would be over after some time since people you are there to share.
Yes I share your poor judgment and the suffering that you had to under go in the past. Might be the path of life for all is not the same and I think there is no pleasure in the ready made things. That you resisted them and are still fighting is the real spirit. My salute to this spirit.
@sukumar794 (5040)
• Thiruvananthapuram, India
21 Aug 09
Quite a natural phenomenon.Most of us at some point of time get this sort of void and a drowsy numbness paining their senses.Just cope with it.You will definitely be a;right.Good luck.
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@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
21 Aug 09
Hi Sukumar,
This is strange that to think that you just lose your balance of thought and go Hayward. This is was my personal feeling that I had this morning.
Appreciate your words of encouragement.
@paula27661 (15811)
• Australia
21 Aug 09
I don’t think you are alone there rajiib. What you are experiencing is called ‘the blues’ and it happens to all of us at one time or another. It is perfectly normal as long as the feeling doesn’t stay with you for too long.
I have often experienced moments of sadness and regrets and when in such a sombre mood I analyse my life and all its regrets. It feels like a rainy day and all you are waiting for is for the sunshine to come back.
The important thing to remember is that the sun will shine again, it always does; it is a matter of hanging in there.
By the way from my interactions with you I would consider you very intelligent!
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@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
21 Aug 09
No Paula, I am not there and hence so many good souls like you are there around me to cheer up and I am once again the same person as used to be.
Yes, it was a 'blue' perhaps that pushed me to the corner and I was sort of forced to gulp the unpleasant thought. It sent me some signal of my present condition and the possibility of the otherwise events. But tuning with your chords I must say that life is jealous of our contentment.
The simile that you brought up is the most suitable here. Yes a slight rain and the sunshine is not far away.
I must thank you for the compliment. Got really inspired.
@srganesh (6340)
• India
21 Aug 09
Yes!I too feel like that once in a while.That times,I will not be able to give my best and I could not find a good post to respond at all.Just I will be scrolling through pages.Soon after realizing it,I will just close my computer and go for a walk or divert my attention.So,you too try to seclude yourself for a while and everything will be alright.Cheers!
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@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
21 Aug 09
Hi srganesh,
Might be this happens or cross the mind when it gets a slight of chance. Like that I am not crying over my present being or occupation. Still the aspiring mind is not happy some time and and unnamed another part of you nudges you and you are alerted to think as if something has gone amiss.
Appreciate your words.
your words.
@kitty42 (3923)
• United States
22 Aug 09
Well as a female we woman tend to get a little down every now and then, sometimes for no reason, its touching to read this coming from a man, when I get down I cry a lot, I feel my daughter do not love me things of that nature, but even during this time I always know how wonderful I am and after a while, I am fine, we just have to over power the feelings, not allow them to over power us, thats usually what I do, you will be o.k mylot is the best place to just let go and express yourself, the feedback will give you insight, you might come across someone that is feeling the same as you are at that point, just hang in their keep on mylotting, all will be well.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
22 Aug 09
Hi kitty,
Very encouraging word indeed. Not that I am depressed as I have mentioned it. but an unknown and nebulous feeling. Like just I am there and and not there and pick something up now and drop the next moment. This is no more now and I am fresh again.
Surprisisngly I am not upset that I did not have a good job. Its just part of our humor I guess.
Thank you for all.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
25 Aug 09
This is a nice and legit suggestion all the way. They say sharing of grief lessens and sharing of joy increases.
Thanks you for the suggestion.
@kitty42 (3923)
• United States
22 Aug 09
I am glad all is well, whenever you are feeling down, or that feeling starts to creep up on you again, come to mylot and write about it, that will help you to get through it, this is one of the things I love about mylot, you can share your thoughts and feelings, and get some great feedback as well I can't stress this enough, sometime when I am feeling down and I am all alone with no one to talk too, it is really hard, if only I knew about mylot then, would have saved me a lot of tears let me tell ya I would sometimes go in the bathroom and talk to myself in the mirror, its o.k but I don't get that much needed feedback I am starving for at the time, I wish you all the best,have a wonderful day
@zandi458 (28102)
• Malaysia
21 Aug 09
Looks like something is bothering you or your signature signifies that there is good news in your life. What ever it might be I can't fathom what is in your mind right now. I guess your thoughts are somewhere in the wilderness. Every human being is fully embodied with a total and complete divine intelligence imparted by our Maker to use as we see fit in fulfilling our highest good. Through our will, topped with a healthy dose of ignorance and confusion, we often handle our lives like a blind man driving an automobile. The only way we manage to stop is by crashing. This gift that our Maker bestowed upon each of us is the greatest blessing, as well as the greatest curse.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
22 Aug 09
Hi zand,
Yes I do agree with you that if sometime burden like some time makes us feel as if we are the greatest embodiment of the Nature. The fleeting thought and a feeling of void is occasional I know, but realizing the manifestation itself is great.
That is befitting to say that it is the healthy ignorance and I too feel that is necessary. I have no such regret in life.
@llewrah2k5 (8)
• United States
22 Aug 09
Yep, happens all the time to me. Life's a dance you learn as you go, tee hee.
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
22 Aug 09
Hi there,
Yeah, I must learn to dance lol I know a bit though. Accepted that this is normal and happens to all from time to time.
@celticeagle (166976)
• Boise, Idaho
24 Aug 09
I think, for me, I get in a rut and then I start having some really profound and deep feelings about where I am at and what i am doing with the time I have left and all. Think it is pretty normal.
@sanjana_aslam (4187)
• Malaysia
22 Aug 09
hi krajib
i am a loner, i like to spend my times in the house .. i enjoy my time alone or with my husband in the house .. i do not like to go out or hang out as i find it to be tiring and expensive ...
i enjoy my friends in mylot, i enjoy the discussion, i enjoy the arguments
intelligence .. i wont say i have much more than you, but basically i believe my experience in life has thought me alot
so mylot is not my main income .. it is just my fun time .. the money i earn here does not even cover my internet charges
be cheerful dear and start arguing with me
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
22 Aug 09
Hi Sanjana!
My case was/is quite different and not aligning to what you thought. Not money that I have been here. What I get from here is like you have said not enough even to meet the internet bill. That is just a bonus.
My thing was a not soothing feel and an unknown fuzzy thought which cripple the process and you are in a state of inaction. Just like that.
@bing28 (3795)
• Philippines
22 Aug 09
Oh yes Rajib, this happened to me too. While there are times that you're running out of time to make some efforts at mylot, where you feel you only need enough time for sure you can make it to a higher payout, however when you have all the time, your mind seems to be not working or you don't even want to touch the keyboard. I pause for a while or go over other sites where could quite refresh my mind, say do farming at facebook, plant and harvest crops and fruits there, collect the eggs of the chicken or milk from the cows. After a while, I go back to mylot and find myself now composed and productive. Hehe, are my words correct, dear prof? Time to do help in English with one another, remember?
@krajibg (11922)
• Guwahati, India
22 Aug 09
Hi Bing,
This is not that I am worried over making penny or increase the posts exactly. Money is nothing that you get in return if you compare your input here. just a nameless and hazy feeling or say a mix feeling that sometime seem to take upper hand of me.
I agree that visiting other sites or browsing some new pages could be of some help but that too does not happen.
@maygodblessu44 (7336)
• India
4 Sep 09
Hello my friend Rajib Ji,
with regards to ability about oneself, everyone knows, what one can do. Everyone does as per one's capacity and capability. I only see and reply my mails and do myLotting, in case I need some help from internet to site an example and continue my response, I very well do. Even I do not do any task as it involves lot of time.
May God bless You and have a great time.
