I think I have a diseased mind.

That happens to me all the time. If you have a diseased mind then most people in the world are mad! :D I dont believe you have anything to worry about. Sometimes are mind wonders off and comes back, not all there but it comes back either way. My father is a shrink and even his mind wonders on ocassion so we all wonder off sometimes.

well for starters let me say something... have u heard of the term multiple personality or a split personality/ surely u must have because hollywood and bollywood have made so many movies on this subject... the thing is in those movies they make it sound as if it is rare... but i will tell u wat it is not at all rare.. it is very common.. every human being is split and dats wat reflects in our decisions during moral dilemmas.... dats why myth has always come up with this idea of how both an angel and a demon guard ur thoughts and their wars results in ur decision...so even for small decisions concerning moral issues we have the need to heed to listen to two sides of the decision making process.. since the body is one and we need to consider two sides of a moral dilemma itis only natural dat we talk to ourselves....in my opinion it is only mental if somebody jus listens to one side of wat ur mind says.. if u listen to the demon u turn into a criminal and if u listen to the angel u turn into a saint... only if there is a balance we are human! and singing to urself is gud for u! scientific studies prove dat! it keeps ur mind lively and prevents depression! u are ok , dont worry!and the mind does not have a switch dat i know of! it is tuned to receive everything but it is left to our skill to tune into the right channel like a radio! spirituality helps u do dat... and meditation.... and i am not talking about religion though it is a means to spirituality

Most times the control over ourselves tends from being decisive in our actions. These actions come in form of thought controlled decisions. Let me explain, when we need to get out from bed, most times we need to will our mindset into action. The mind only work based on what we have upstairs, like unsettled situations bothering us. So, my advice is this, try starring at something abstractly with an ear piece on your ear, play a song you love and try not to sing along with the song or allow your mind to play past the present.Be focused and at the same time blank. The aim of this is to subjugate your mind into obeisance. Keep at it as much as possible and see the outcome. Remember, your will wills your conscious and subconscious into action.

hi Sudipta, This is my too old a habit to talk to myself or say make soliloquy. This usually happens when I am alone and no one is in the near to listen to me. I deliver speeches in English and sometime in my own language. Even if I am riding my bike I would sing a favorite number and interestingly I enjoy this as it breaks the monotony of the ride. I am only not like that as you are when teaching and studying serious matter.

There are 3 D's for diagnosing a mental disorder: (1) it causes pervasive and strong DYSFUNCTION in the individual's life, meaning the person could not function in the mainstream; (2) it causes DISTRESS to the person and to other people in his immediate environment; and (3) it has characteristics that DEVIATE a person from the norm. Given what you've said and given what I could observe from your post: 1. It seems you *don't* have any extreme dysfunction but is just anxious about the belief that you "can't control anything that your brain comes up with." And if you could still study, read, and post intelligent questions here at MyLot, I suppose you could still function in the mainstream. 2. It causes you some distress as I've explained in No.1, but not extreme to the point that all emotional attachments or normal behavior is put to a halt. 3. It seems that what your describing does not deviate from the norm given the observations from other commenters to your post. So in terms of the DSM-IV and in terms of only your post (mind you, I haven't seen you yet) it seems that you don't have any specific mental disorder. Of course, this is just an online assessment but offhand this could seem to be the case. Some things I'd just like to ask though: 1. Why does it make you anxious to experience these sensations? For example, writers and other creative types would welcome these because it is with these that they get their inspiration. 2. Does experiencing these sensations make you feel better in general? If your mind starts its own thought process, does going through the different tangents that it comes up make you feel better or worse, that is if you don't try to stop it? 3. When did this start? Have you an experience or event that you could point as the cause to this situation?

Hi sidiptacallingu I think most of us go through this believe it or not, its really hard to control our every thought,I could be watching t.v then all of a sudden I drift off into lala land,only to say shoot, so you rewind and promise yourself you will pay attention this time, or having a conversation with someone you are actually having a totally different conversation in your head, thats why sometimes you hear "your not paying me ant attention are are you" this is something that we all go through,I know I do. If you are talking to yourself silently, then that is not talking to yourself, thats is called "thinking" we all do it, some of us have good control of what we think, others just go with it and let their mind take them place places their body may never go, some of us have crazy thoughts, we allow ourself to believe them and then we end up on medication. The mind is a wonderful thing, thats why they have some many self help books out there, everyone wants to try to control this beautiful thing, IMO is uncontrollable. Talking to yourself is just that "talking" to yourself, I do this as well, when I am around other people I may talk very low,like I am playing out my thoughts " I am going to do this first' OR "should I buy this one" I have no shame in talking to myself, as long as I am not talking crazy like some people do, I don't see a problem with it.

Hi Sudipta! If you feel that you have some problem in your mind, then many like you have this problem, one of them of course me. It is a very common thing, our mind keeps thinking and many thoughts keep coming in our mind either belonging to any present situation/event, past event or any future event. I think when we think, we keep getting new ideas to execute a pending task. I also keep thinking most of the time, even when I am fast asleep. When I am asleep my sub-consious mind keeps the thought process on and dreams come my way every night, may be related to some weird or imaginary sitautions. When I am awake, flow of thoughts do not stop. When I am in bathroom or washroom, more thoughts keep coming in my mind, because there I remain alone and I can think, whatever I feel like. I think, till we are alive, this thing will not stop, our mind will keep thinking one thing or the other, so you need not bother at all that you have some disease. Keep enjoying the life. Have a great day! Deepak

Hai Sudiptacallingu, I am happy to read this discussion because right from my childhood, I have been undergoing this problem. My mind goes on thinking on unnecessary thinks like 'it could have happened this way. I would have talked that way. What if I am in that school. Now it has gone to this level that whenever some arguments crop up between my husband and me, he hurts me by his behaviour or talk, I think whether I should have married that person, this person and how my married life would have been, though I do not know anything about the other person. But finally I conclude that my husband only is suitable for me with his dynamic personality. But is it not waste of time thinking all rubbish? Sometimes I talk to God's photo. I do not know how to stop these stupid thoughts.

Sudipta, this has happened to me also. I will go one step further, when I am taking my daily walk, in the morning, my imagination runs wild, and suddenly if I hear a song, I think how it will be if I sing it in a front of an audience or suddenly I become a cricket player or something like this. This happens only when you brain is idle, and when you are busy with some work, mental or physical, it goes away. So I can understand the sentence myraids of imaginary situations and discussions. This is the first time, I have seen somebody else discussing about it. I thought some thing was wrong with me and so I did not discuss this with anyone.

You need to keep your mind active, rather than letting it get idle. That appears to be the problem. So, in other words, use you mind online, and you will have less idle time. Perhaps you could even go to a workshop, or volunteer at some place. Anything to keep your mind active.

As a therapist and Zen practitioner, I can acknowledge that the mind chatters away all the time. Awaking or in dreams when we are asleep. Just think and considering an answer to this post, I can hear my mind telling me what to write. Sometimes, I will think alound. This can be when I am on my own in the house or if somebody else in the house and they hear me. I just tell them I was talking to myself if they ask. I don't think it is the sign of a diseased mind, or perhaps I am just nuts! If I am nuts, then I am perfectly willing to wear that label. - Derek

I have this "problem". I call it my eternal internal monologue. It's quite therapeutic. Imagine the harm that would be done if I were to actually verbalize all the things that I think in my head. But when I need to concentrate on the task at hand I am able to silence my mind by thinking about "nothing". In my case my "nothing" is a blank sheet of white paper on a white table in a white room. That is also very relaxing for me. If I need my mind to concentrate on a task I am performing then I make that my thought. For example...My mind thinks all of this while I'm doing it...I need to have dinner on the table by 5. I need to chop the onions. I need to boil the water. I need to brown the meat....etc Then while I'm doing the task...the water is boiling, the meat is browning, I'm chopping the onions, don't forget to check on the meat....etc. etc. It forced my brain to stay focused on what I need to be doing at the time. Try it. It works for me. :)

I do this all the time. I make checklists in my head. I imagine future situations for myself that will likely never happen and I play out how things might end if I did certain things or what I will say to people and what they might or might now say back to me. If my mind had a mouth I'd put some duct tape on it to shut it up. I've never thought of being diseased though. My only real complaint about it is when it interrupts my sleep.

I don't think you have a diseased mind at all. I live alone and I talk to myself a lot. I think a lot of people do. I have a little dog I keep in the house and I talk to her sometimes, lol. Some people think that's crazy but I don't. If you have plans to do something but you're afraid you might forget it, it helps to say it out loud because you tend to remember it better that way. Happy mylotting. Kathy.

I think its perfectly normal to have conversations running in one's mind. i have those converstions too.

I can well identify with what you have written Sudipta because there are a myriad of thoughts flitting through my mind too at any given time. I also imagine a situation [suppose I am about to meet a person or something] and the way I would talk and what questions the person would ask.I feel this is a figment of an overactive imagination and the tendency to predict and specalate over behavioural patterns.THis does not work all the time and so except for humorous situations I feel we should try and curb it.One way I have found is to pull back my mind with the conscious thought 'let me see what she/he is going to say and then I would act.After all, things may not turn out the way I magine".But my imagination stops with just potential confrontations[when a plan has been made to go somewhere].Otherwise, i do not think about the future.So, coming to the point, I felt we should learn mediatation [the proper method].

Hi sudipta, You are absolutely alright and nothing to worry. Human mind is just like a running horse that lost control. When people are around or we are busy with talking anybody then we don’t get time to spend with our mind. I think all are doing the same. It is just like a dream sometimes. So don’t worry please go ahead.

i dont think thats a problem at all. i've seen many discussions here where people say they are the same way as you and i have had my own discussions about the same thing. i think it means you have a very good and inquisitive mind/brain that will be of help to you as long as you are alive. iam the same way. so, hopefully thats not really so bad

you do dear ... i dont think so, your brain is just active .. it does not like "time-out", you should be happy that it functions at all time especially with the tunes .. On the distracting part - i have seen people like that, the body is there but the mind is not ...but i guess it is because you do not like what is 'happening' or being discussed at that time that your brain just halts and thinks of some other pleasureable things How to control that ... sorry i dont know

As far as I can recall I have been doing this for 65 years less 11 days and however long it took for me to develop enough language skills to talk to myself. I think anyone who doesn't is more than a little weird. Lash