Return to sender

Don't know whether your friend will read this or not.Memory is endless.I am as though searching out you two who are innocent playmates in your past time.Who is Dear Adam?I guess he must be your boyfriend.I think you need a blog to post this on for the second.In order to be a better mark in the mists of time

Thanks for the opportunity to share something like this... My dearest aunt colleen: As i am writting this, i am sitting here in deep sadness, as i just found out form my mother that the doctors have given you litterally days or less before your body gives out and you will no longer be with us here on earth. It is really unfair that someone as wonderful as you has had to go through so much phyical pain and suffering. Multiple sclerosis is such a terrible and horrible disease, and many people don't even know how much suffering is involved. Knowing the pain you are going through causes me so much pain in my heart, second only to the pain i would be feeling if it were my mother, who also unfortunately is afflicted with the same disease. I so very much wish i could call you, and tell you how much you mean to me, and how much you will be missed and never forgotten in my life, but unfortunately the infections that are coursing through your body have made you all but incoherant. My mother was so elated the other day when she was ble to get you on the phone, and you recognized her name and who she was, even though it was only for a moment or two, before you relapsed back into the darkness of these infections. Even after you are gone, i just want you to know that i will never forget all the wonderful times we spent together. Getting to spend time with you was always the highlight to this little girl whenever my family traveled to iowa to visit with the family. I still have pictures and will never forget how you would let me play with all the makeup in the kit you carried in your purse all the time. You would not only let me put make-up on myself...but you would let me "touch-up" yours as well..then we would sit and play cards, either old maid, or go fish, with bright blue eyeshadow caked on up to our eyebrows and huge, bright red streaks of rouge and blood red lipstick on...and never once did you seem embarassed for others to see you that way with me. I also have fond memories of going to the park in town, the one with the pond? We would stop at the store and pick up a loaf of bread, and sit next to the little pond, feeding the ducks and geese, and laughing at how silly they were. I remember going to the movies with you, seeing E.T. on the big screen was amazing! And i remember you buying me my first diary...with out that i may never have gotten into writing and poetry the way i have, and it brings me such enjoyment now. I want to apologize for "falling off the face of the earth" over the past decade or so. I know tht after i moved to maine, half the country away formthe rest of my family, i kind of lost touch with everyone. I will admit, it was selfish of me. I never really stopped to think about how much my loved ones would miss me, and how much they just wanted to hear from me and know that i was okay. I was too wrapped up in my own life, becoming my own person, and it seemed that forgetting and leaving behind all parts of my past was the easiest way to accomplish this. I ralize now this was a huge mistake. I missed out on getting to spend time with grandma during her last years, and now i have missed out on your final moments too. I wish i could go back and change this, but infortunately i cannot. I just hope you know, somewhere deep down inside, that even though i lost touch with you i still love you and think about you often, and will miss you dearly. Love always and forever Your niece Elizbeth ok..i have to go find a tissue or 5 now....as i said at the begining, thanks for giving me the inspiration to write this. it has been weighing on my mind these past few days as her condition just keeps worsening and worsening.

Hi pinklemonade, well i have to say this is certainly one of the best discussions some one has ever put on this site, atleast for me, your letter is so sweet, I wish you would meet your dear friend Adam someday:) Well this is a letter to my first crush, her name is Vrinda and i don't know where she is now... well i am writing my feelings for her back when i had a crush on her and could not do anything for that, this is the story 6 years ago and we were in our high school. [i] Hi Vrinda, i am writing this to you now after nearly 6 years, i don't know where you are now or what you are doing, but i have something to tell you after all these years... i don't know if you ever felt that i liked you back then, but i don't have any of those feelings now, i sometimes regret that i never did anything to know you better, i always wanted to know more about you, your beautiful smile that made my day, when i didn't pay attention to my teacher i used to wonder about you so much, i always imagined you with that sweet bright smile, the smile if you had given towards me i would have felt so wonderful, i noticed you got along well with people but that is not something i am good at, i hesitate meeting new people, i am just so shy and especially with the girls... and it would certainly have been much harder for me to approach you... You might not have noticed but i always liked to see your face when you were smiling, your smile was the biggest attraction for me those days... to be honest to you i have to say that many of the boys were crazy about you and i think you know that, but i never showed it out, i was just so shy about it, some of my friends would openly discuss about you but i never took part in those discussions, i kept it all to myself and not even my closest of friends, i think i should have approached you back then, coz i knew you were always open to talk with boys but you know i couldn't, sometimes in the past i often felt how nice it would have been i were more open with people but i don't have those thoughts anymore, i have learned to accept myself and that is the way i am and how God has made me, i have a lot of friends now, but few are really close to me, i share a lot of things with my close pals, but telling that i really liked you was also difficult for me to say. I can picture you right now the way you were back then, the short hair and the cute smile, i wonder if you have changed, i wonder if you have longer hair now but i can say you will definitely look good whether it be long or short hair, i even think you have got a nice boyfriend now, i would be so glad to see you happy with life... i am no longer having those feelings i once had for you, but i know we can be great friends if we meet somewhere, that is if you will recognize me, i have grown thinner and look quiet different these days, i know was a bit chubbier back then but recently i have grown a bit more handsome...heheh... don't worry i am not praising myself here or anything like that, i am just giving the description of how i am right now and i assume you are looking prettier now and no doubt there must be so many guys out there who would like to meet you...heheh... well dear Vrinda i missed you after the school and i have been over it and i am pretty cool with it, how nice if somewhere we could meet and remember those wonderful days we had in the class 6 years back, oh i know you miss those days too don't you, well i missed you that time... Well something i would also like to tell you about, you remember our funny little incident don't you, when i accidentally crashed into you near that corridor, i know you wouldn't forget that so easily ... hehe... i blushed really bad that time you know, my face was all red and hot after that incident, somehow i could say sorry otherwise my mouth wouldn't even have opened up to say anything, i have to say sometimes you even turned your head all the way back from the first row you used to sit in and stare at me with your wonderful eyes, i could never meet your eyes, i felt they were so powerful i could never meet them, i really wonder why you did that and still i do wonder, people would say to me "you are so nuts she was giving you the signal", was that the case with you? i don't know if it had been that way but anyways i wouldn't have been able to approach you, or maybe it's just the thing that sometimes girls really wonder about the silent ones in the class, you know i was, maybe you wondered what was on my mind and if you could read my thoughts you would have known that i liked you, or maybe you would have known that i wanted you to approach me rather than me towards you... . . . anyways that was quiet long ago, now we live so different lives, i don't even know where you are but you might know where i am coz the news has spread that i am in one of the premier institutes, anyways i am not boasting here, lets get along with our lives and it would be certainly sweet to meet you somewhere and somehow, take care Vrinda and all my best wishes for you![/i]