40 days and 40 nights
By Ritz100
@Ritz100 (1169)
Yecla, Spain
September 4, 2009 6:37pm CST
I seem to have taken a lot of time NOT being in touch with my family and friends, because I seemed to need to. During this time I have seen things about myself I did not know and have realised that some of the "friends" I have been "avoiding" are those that doubt my intentions and abilities and have prevented me, so far, from being successfull at what I want to do.
I just want to pass on this message: "It's great to take time out, I get the 40 days and 40 nights story now, it makes you look inward, see yourself more clearly, then make extremely difficult choices about where you will go "from here"
Do you have a story about "finding yourself?"
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6 responses
@Canellita (12029)
• United States
9 Sep 09
Congratulations on arriving at your journey's destination! As "they" say, misery loves company and there will always be someone around trying to hold you back. Any friend who would interfere in your self realization is no friend.
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@Ritz100 (1169)
• Yecla, Spain
11 Sep 09
And that Canellita, is pretty much the conclusion I have come to over the past few weeks and I am beginning to see why I was never truly happy, I dont need judgement, I need support, I dont need carers I need friends and I dont need "what you been doing?" but instead "how you been doing?"
Thanks
@bjcyrix (6901)
• Philippines
5 Sep 09
Hmm, I havent really had that 'burnout' stage where I said to myself enough is enough and do other things, at least for the time being. That's because I try to take breaks or time outs every chance that I get. So they may be little/small in amount of time but I do have a lot of them.
As for being with myself and reflecting, well, being alone most of the time can lead to that more often than not. Im usually left to myself and there are those times that I really do not have to do anything to distract me. That just leads to having an internal dialogue of getting to know myself better and rediscovering who/how I am at present.^_^
@Ritz100 (1169)
• Yecla, Spain
6 Sep 09
Actually, I am not doing different things, I am just doing things differently. I'll be 50 next year and decided that I must make something of my life, so I am working harder than ever, but in the right way - Im not sure if this makes any sense - and I feel clearer in my head and my heart about why I am doing the things I do.
I am alone too, but it wasnt enough, somehow people seem to think that I need to have someone to talk to all the time, so they ring me up, "just to chat" ugggh. I can do that, its not me. I love to be alone, its when I get the best things done.
Anyway, enough rambling, thanks for your response, it makes a lot of sense.
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@tamarafireheart (15384)
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5 Sep 09
Hi Ritz100,
There is no chance for me to "find myself" as my hubby is here more often the not, he works four days and home four days, so there is no chance, but I know that I am much stronge then I used to be and ev eything positive about myself though.
Tamara
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@Opal26 (17679)
• United States
5 Sep 09
Hey Ritz! Nice to see you again! Sometimes we just have to
take a step back and look inside ourselves! I have done this
from time to time! I know that sometimes my friends don't
quite understand why or what I am doing, but it is something
that I feel I need to do! It is sometimes called "isolating",
but I prefer to call it taking time to look inside myself and
rearrange my feelings or whatever I feel is necessary for
me to do at that moment! Sometimes it is just something that
we need to do for ourselves and there is nothing wrong with
that! So if you need to "find yourself" you should do so and
not have to explain it to anyone, not even yourself!
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@Ritz100 (1169)
• Yecla, Spain
6 Sep 09
Well thank you for that. I have had the occassional twang of guilt about my isolation over the last few weeks, but my life is improving because of it. I am seeing opportunities that I would have otherwise missed and I feel I am moving forward in a new way now.
I must stop feeling guilty about "neglecting" those people who keep calling me. I really dont want to have to explain myself to them. I know they are hating me and thinking I am not a friend, but its not about them, its about me right now.
@picjim (3002)
• India
5 Sep 09
Yes i can understand your situation well.Despite our best efforts people around us try to put us down.They don't give us the necessary encouragement to make us rise in our chosen profession.As long as you realize your potential without giving undue attention to friends and relatives who are trying to demoralize you,you can improve your position by being more focused and putting in more hard work.
@marctiu (829)
• Philippines
5 Sep 09
I have no found myself yet. But soon enough once I find myself a job and can stand on my own there I'll start to find myself. I am just afraid for now that I can do it and I really need more support from my parents for my needs. I have difficulty finding a job so I hope that I will be hire soon.
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@Ritz100 (1169)
• Yecla, Spain
5 Sep 09
Aw honey, you will find what you need, I have been in situations when I didnt know what I was going to eat tommorow, and that was only a month ago - I am not joking!
I dont really know how I survived with no income (for 18 months) at the age of 48 in a country where I dont speak the language. Hang on in there girl, you are alive for a reason, believe that you deserve happiness, health and wealth, and that is exactly what you will get!