I just lost my 17 year old cousin...
By breepeace
@breepeace (3014)
Canada
September 8, 2009 12:50pm CST
On August 29th, my cousin sat down on her bed, read a passage of the bible, and then shot herself through the head with her dad's handgun.
She was 17 years old, beautiful, intelligent, creative, gifted and well loved. I personally travelled over 3000 km to attend her funeral, and I know many people flew even longer to reach it. It was a tragedy, and her memory will remain eternal, but all those that she left behind hurt so much.
I, too, suffer from depression (bipolar disorder), and I have had the same thoughts that must have crossed her mind, but am so thankful I made it through those dark periods intact.
I want everyone here to consider the following:
While suicide often seems like the only option, consider the pain and suffering you leave behind and what a selfish decision it ultimately is. Life will never be the same for any of us now because of her passing, and we all have to live with the pain and unanswered questions.
If you ever feel like it's your only option, or the only viable way out of your current situation, please call a close friend, a minister or priest, a family member or a suicide helpline. I hope no one ever has to endure the pain my family has endured and continues to deal with.
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10 responses
@coolcoder (2018)
• United States
8 Sep 09
I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine the pain that you're going through. Please know that you and your family will be in my prayers.
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@robert19ph (4577)
• Philippines
9 Sep 09
hello breecepeace,
so sorry for your lost. it's really indeed painful for she shot herself without anybody's knowledge as to why she did it. but no matter what our problem/s is/are, we have no right at all to end up our life at all. For HE is the only one not ours will do that. we have our own problems in life and that is just normal. it's up to us how to deal with it.
and you are right that we need someone to talk to, to lighten our burden, to loosen up and be enlightened. just not take it seriously for in every problem there is always a solution.
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@Opal26 (17679)
• United States
9 Sep 09
Hey bree~ I am so sorry to hear about your cousin. It just
seems that no matter how depressed someone is, especially
someone so young that there should never be anything that is
so terrible that would make one take their own life especially
in such a violent manner. I know that being a teenager is
not always pleasant, but things are never that terrible that
they won't eventually pass. I feel so badly that your cousin
felt that she couldn't reach and talk to someone and felt
that her problems where that serious because I'm sure that
someone would have helped her if she would have just asked.
I hope that your family is able to deal with this terrible
loss. God Bless you and your family Bree.
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@beaushell (339)
• Philippines
9 Sep 09
That is a very sad news. A promising life she has. I'm sorry for your lost. God grant you and your family peace and comfort in this time of grieving.
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@sugarlen (138)
• Philippines
12 Sep 09
We all have dark periods in our lives. Life is how we take it and living is how we bear it. Let's always think positive so that positive vibes come our way and pray hard that God will always protect us. Everything will come to pass as long as you have faith in God.
@kitty42 (3923)
• United States
10 Sep 09
Hello my friend 
I am so sorry for your lost, I have been depressed many a days and I agree we must consider others but when you are going through this at the time you don't feel like there is anyone to consider you feel alone, no one loves you, they will be better off if I was not here, this is sad but true, I am speaking about how I have felt many of days, your post is beautiful and I will always remember your words, unfortunately when we are feeling down we can't see what is right and after you get pass the feeling then someone will do or say something to you to make you say wow what if? its really sad for her to be so young and have to go through such a horrible thing, depression is scary, and going through it can be even scarier, I know and I am sure you do as well, being so young maybe she just did not know how to handle these horrible feelings it really sucks, I, oh wow many of days, but I always thought about the after affect who will find me, how would they feel, being older we would think like this you know, so young she didn't see any other option and that is really sad.I am so sorry.
I am so sorry for your lost, I have been depressed many a days and I agree we must consider others but when you are going through this at the time you don't feel like there is anyone to consider you feel alone, no one loves you, they will be better off if I was not here, this is sad but true, I am speaking about how I have felt many of days, your post is beautiful and I will always remember your words, unfortunately when we are feeling down we can't see what is right and after you get pass the feeling then someone will do or say something to you to make you say wow what if? its really sad for her to be so young and have to go through such a horrible thing, depression is scary, and going through it can be even scarier, I know and I am sure you do as well, being so young maybe she just did not know how to handle these horrible feelings it really sucks, I, oh wow many of days, but I always thought about the after affect who will find me, how would they feel, being older we would think like this you know, so young she didn't see any other option and that is really sad.I am so sorry.1 person likes this
@loner2009 (1)
• United States
10 Sep 09
i wish i could trade places with her.... everyone would be happier, especially those who know me.
