My Emotional dilemma,any advise?

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Hello my Friends, I have not been able to be here for a while and when I checked in today I noticed I received best response 3 times ..THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH ((( Jillhill ))) ((( Webearn ))) Thank you for your Kindness, this is the first time I received best response:) I made a trip to Arizona last Labor Day and stayed with my dad until his Dr. Appointment last Friday. Ever since then I've been emotionally drained and don't really know how to deal with this. in 2003 my dad he is 74, had extensive heart surgery which involved the bypass of 5 arteries, a new heart valve, and the repair and reconstruction of a serious aneurysm right above the heart in the aorta artery. My dad went through pure hell because 2weeks after the surgery his platelets dropped and he needed to be on IV to build the platelets ..the med they gave him worked the first day, the next day the nurse failed to administer the meds in a timely manner and the constituted mixture grew bacteria, she administered the mixture which left my dad full of infections of course, due to the bacteria. he had to undergo more surgeries water being removed from his heart,pneumonia,and spend the next 6 weeks in ICU . my dad had recovered and was doing well, but then my Mom passed away in 2005. he dealt with her death the best he could and is STILL working full time mainly because he needs the insurance and his social security is not enough. in April this year his cardiologist performed a cardiogram where a camera is inserted to his veins to check his heart after failing a stress test. 3 of his arteries had collapsed and a new large aneurysm was discovered above the last one at the size of 4.7 cm . The Dr. told us that surgery would be risky and my dad said well I am going on vacation at which the Dr. said yes go and enjoy yourself, we will check you again in 6 month ..well when the Dr. entered the room where my dad was waiting last Friday the Dr. said surprised oh you're still here.....My dad said why would I not be? the Dr fumbled with words and I knew the comment had just slipped out..my dad is now scheduled for a cat scan. I have not been myself ever since that day, my dad makes little comments like not wanting to plan anything ahead etc. I have nightmares,cry,worry and can't seem to get it together, I am constantly thinking there HAS TO BE A WAY to fix this.. WHAT DO I DO? If you Guys would include my dad in your Prayers i would appriciate it very much. He is the most caring and loving Man I have ever known. Liane