something is missing in my life

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Hi,guys what's up. Before i start, could you just bear me a second. i'd like to tell you guys a little bit about my self.I have been living in an english-speaking country for a while now, (english is my second language), i love this language so much, and personally i think english is the most beautiful language in the world, i have never stopped to practice my english ever since i moved to this country. but most of the time the pratice is done all by my self--i will lock my self in a room, read a short article loudly time after time, it did improveed my accent and influence. But i got this feeling that it is not the best way to improve my english, especially considering i am living in an english country. however, i feel like there is something missing in my life that i want so much but don't know how to get it. i feel there is a invisible wall sourrounding me to keep me away from people, the local people, i have this desire to know them, to understand them, to be a part of their lifes. not only for my english, but also to find this missing part of my life. I have heard and seen people like me, have successfully fitted in this society ,but i am still standing there observing people's life. I feel horrible and sorry for myself. I watch american movies and TV shows, listen to english songs like linkin park (rocks), green day and etc. but still there is not much interaction between me and locals. i even watch the TV show called pick-up artist and read articles written by those PUAs, you know, i was wondering that hi may be this will teach me how to find a local girlfriend to improve my english and get a better understanding of their lifes. i really hate to say this but who am i kiding here, it is already hard for those guys who were borned and raised in this country and speaking english perfectly well to get a girl, let along english is my sencond language. i really don't know what to do now, should i go out there and open a group and say hi, see how it goes. or should i prepare some topics that are interesting or should i change my looks a little bit, you know,things like new hair style. or should i change my life style, my mind set, you know, be positive, embracing my self. sorry guys, there are so many questions and unknowns, cos i have never done something like these before. I know a guy like me, he wrote a article and putted it up on the internet,about his relationships with local girls. i want to be him, but i don't know how and where to start, i wrote him a email,he did not reply. what should i do, is there anyone here have some problems like what i am having here, may be we can share some thoughts, or is there anyone been there before, and now you have had some success, can i get some tips from you guys. thank you very much