loss of my father
By bmuchler
@bmuchler (441)
United States
September 23, 2009 3:35pm CST
I find the things I miss most about my dad are the things that used to annoy me. Starting the motorcycle up every weekend when I was trying to sleep in. Having household items packed up in front of my door so we I opened the door, things came crashing down on me.
I see a counselor. I guess I'm not dealing with things very well. I like going to see my counselor. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders when I come out of her office.
I write letters to my dad, in a journal. I write stories of my dad in another journal. That way I can tell the stories to my kids and they can get to know him.
I always knew I would have an extremely hard time when I lost either one of my parents. I wasn't expecting to loose either of them at such a young age.
3 responses
@kgil28 (14)
• Philippines
23 Dec 09
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my dad too when I was 18, It was hard because i hated my dad. My parents split up since I was 5 and I blamed him for it. It was a long struggle and a lot of fights, but what I can say is he was brave enough not to gave up, it took a long time for me to accept and understand his side... When I forgave him, it started to became easy, I guess fate was good, we compromised and everything was alright, we had a wonderful 6 months together as a family before he passed away, I can say it was almost too late but at least I got the chance to tell him I love him and it wasn't so hard for us to accept the loss and move on.
@growingupthree (54)
• United States
23 Sep 09
I have not lost either of parents so I can not truly understand. When I lost my grandfather, who I turned to with all problems, I was lost myself. I found that writing letters to him helped me through the hard times. I like the idea of your journal for things to tell your kids. I think I may do the same about my grandfather as well as some of the other family that has impacted my life the most for my kids. I would expand the journal to maybe include some of your other family. Especially the funny things and good things so you don't focus so much of your pain. It may help ease the sadness that I know you feel. Many *hugs* and prayers for you.
@jremolacio (36)
• Philippines
23 Sep 09
I'm sorry about your lost. I haven,t lost any of my parents but I'm sure its really hard. If writing in your journal makes overcomes your sadness then you have to continue it. Take it easy.
