BIrthdays

Baretrees, sounds like you are unhappy because you are trying to fit into a style that someone else has designed for you. Try being yourself. I am sure the friends that you count on your one hand are truer than the hundreds that some other people think they have. Do not measure your friends in volume but how true they are. That small birthday party with your Mom and the family friend is with people who truly care about you. That means more than a party with people who came just because they heard there was a party. You do not have to say anything but the standard THANK YOU to your true friends. They will understand. That is the beauty of true friendship. You can be yourself. No pretenses needed. Obviously, if you are uncomfortable with a tiny luncheon with your Mom and a friend, you would be devastated with a big blowout birthday party, so you are not a party animal by any means. That does not mean you have low self-esteem. If you do feel you have a problem, then by all means, seek help. You are a young man. You should not bear this burden and let it make your life miserable. If you are interested in meeting people, then frequent places where people do thing that you like. People with common interests are more likely to talk to each other.

Love yourself before you love others, easier said than done but that's the only way to regain your self confidence. Focus on what's beautiful in you and not the bad. Think of yourself first before others.

I dont like myself much and can never understand why people would like to do nice things for me but, they do and that means they care about me and value me even though I dont. It sort of makes you feel good and bad at the same time doesn't it? If you dont like yourself, then think of the pleasure that your friend is getting from doing this for you and be pleased and happy for her instead. The best way to say "thank you" is to enjoy this loving gesture. I hope you do have a good time... & happy birthday for tomorrow