God, You Dirty Rat! Why did you do this to me????

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As we go through life, we struggle through our lessons. Sometimes, our adversity hurts so bad that we must have relief. The love in our lives is a most welcome pain killer. With a friendly smile and a warm hug, we are ready to take on any task. They say you should never take your love for granted. None of us think we do, but we do. Our love slowly becomes part of us. We ease back into the arms of that easy chair, comfortable and secure in knowing we are complete. We focus on our troubles and adversity always assuming that our easy chair of love will be there to catch us. If life is about learning and growing, this must include change. When all the lessons are learned, one must move on. Sometimes, to really learn, we must get out of our comfort zone. I don't want to leave my comfort zone for my easy chair feels so good. But life isn't about just feeling good now is it??? Change is the name of the game for us all. I too must change for the true love of my life has died of cancer. With my heart raw with hurt, I cry. God, You dirty rat! Why did you do this to me???? How can I live without her??? Suddenly my soft, pain killing easy chair is gone. What is a guy to do?? Going through life, we all have a choice. We can feel our way through or we can think our way through. To only feel now is to bring heartache and hurt. We must think our way through. Thinking makes me realize that things are always more complex than simple hurting. There is more going on behind the scenes or out of view. My true love is off to influence others with her love, kindness, and selflessness. I too, will take her with me, laced around my heart, giving a piece of her and myself in everything I do, touching all that I meet. She is truly the soft side of me. Is this the end of the world?? Seems so, but it's not. There will be others come into my life. I am going to choose to remember all the good times instead of dwelling on this hurt. I am definitely out of my comfort zone. I will not let this hurt define me or my life. After all, there is so much more I can do, so much left to learn, and much more love to be discovered. A famous saying of my true love is that men are like buses. If you miss one, another will be along in a while. Though we hold on for dear life, perhaps nothing is truly ours. Being able to stand on our own two feet, means we can't stay in those easy chairs all the time. We must learn to be strong! As for you, Ms. K. don't think this thing called death will get you off the hook with me. I will search throughout all eternity just to get one more hug from you. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!! Go to your loved one today! Take extra effort to let them FEEL your LOVE!!! For life is about change.