am I a mean friend?
By sweet_jette
@sweet_jette (168)
Philippines
October 28, 2009 2:19am CST
I always wanted to have a lot of friends. I am kind of introvert, but I'm fighting it. It is sad to be alone and by yourself.
However, no matter what I do, I always meet untrue people more than nice ones. I like the feeling of knowing someone sees you as a friend. It makes me happy, very very happy. I like making them laugh. I like helping them out. It makes me feel that I have a meaningful purpose as a friend.
I don't like categorizing my friends (as to how close they are to me) as I don't like being measured up.
Though I never liked this kind of feeling, I somewhat feel like some people I treat as my friends don't really see me as one of theirs. I never entertained the thought, but these people contact me only when they need something. I even catch them talking behind my back.
It hurts me so bad because I value my friends like gold. I would never do such mean things to them. And that is what hurts me the most.
I don't want to be mean, and I don't like this feeling as it hurts me more that I'm having this feeling towards them. So I started making myself get busy with new hobbies just to forget all about it. And as I do, I decided I don't want to mingle with them anymore.
Am I mean? as a friend and as a person?
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@agv0419 (3022)
• Philippines
28 Oct 09
I'm also feel that too some of my friends before never get in touch with me anymore. They only contact me if they need something or they going to ask me on something. I can't find a true friend that's always been there for me through thick or thin. I don't know why I can't find a real friends and it makes me lonely sometimes because I feel that I'm totally left behind by them. I stop getting in touch with them and I stop seeing them because what the sense of getting in touch with if they don't value our friendship anymore.
@sweet_jette (168)
• Philippines
28 Oct 09
Yeah, I know the feeling.
Though we don't like it, some don't really see us the way we see them. I know its painful, and I understand why you chose to stop getting in touch with them.
I did the same, too. However, since most of them contact me whenever something comes up and needs help, I still can't say no. So now I'm just polite enough to show them I care, and if they can't, its okay.
I don't expect anything in return from my friends, I believe that is the most important. I know you are the same too. Its just that not many are nice enough to notice it.
You'll find friends. :) Just keep that door open, and you certainly will.. :)
