I am slowly cracking

Indonesia
October 28, 2009 7:21pm CST
Have you ever felt that everything around you is breaking apart? I meant, the one you love and you are hoping to be your partner keep on ignoring your messages, problems at work keep on piling (and most of them due to incompetency of others), Your salary seems not enough, You live alone and have to do most of your house chorese alone, and you can not find people who can understand you? I am feeling like that right now, it seems that I am slowly cracking and losing my positiveness. I don't know. I tried to be calm. I tried to be clearheaded. I tried to keep on going, but things are keep on pressing now. I feel like raw egg being knocked on a side of a kitchen sink slowly but surely. I think I need load shedding.....
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
29 Oct 09
zenstrive let me tell you what a physical therapist told me when I did not think i could walk another foot with my quad cane, he said to me, you can always do more than you think you can. and that stuck with me when my son was laid off , when we were evicted, when we became homeless, I knew there had to be help,but of course it was not just what I would have wanted, it broke up our little family, my self and my adult son, but he had to put me here in Gold crest a retirement center, I am 83 and handicapped, and he got put in a gov.sponsored apt with three other men, all of whom are out of wo rk, so they had a place to live. not what we wanted, but we are surviving. we can always do more than we think we can. You have to make yourself know you can survive, you can do whatever you have to do to get through this, and you will then find the help you need,I have felt just like you feel now,and I wept most of the first week i was here but i did survive and someday my son will get work and we will be together again. I am smiling now, and if I had any extra money I would send some to you really.
@mizcash (685)
• Canada
29 Oct 09
I am so touch by your words. I feel like crying when I hear about things other have gone through. My heart goes out to you and your son and you truly have faith (it's believing in the things not seen) You are in my prayers and you will be with your son again. Bless you.
• India
29 Oct 09
hi hatley! i really salute your spirit .my sincere prayer for you.may god grant your wishes.with blessings.
• Indonesia
31 Oct 09
Thanks for sharing the experience. Always good to read admirable fight for survival :)
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
29 Oct 09
Let's see, not happy with my job, not happy with my marriage, autistic child, health problems... Yeah I have bad days. But I have somehow managed to find a way to be happy "over here" even though things are rotten "over there". It takes practice but it's a great coping mechanism if you can manage it. You just try and focus on things that make you happy when you have the time to do so. You get out in nature. You listen to music. You find an activity that you enjoy. It helps. It really does. Maybe she's not the right girl. I'm sure you will find somebody who is right in time.
• Indonesia
31 Oct 09
I look around, and have never been able to find better girl with better family background. So I am trying to keep this one.
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@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
3 Nov 09
I hope it works out, but you can't force somebody to want you.
@mizcash (685)
• Canada
29 Oct 09
It's not nice when you feel like that, it shows you have too many things boogling your mind. You need to stop and evaluate thing s before they get out of hand. Hand you job issues first as that's your bread and butter. Sort things out with the boyfriend after, the housework is always going to be there so take you time and make a schedule so you don't feel overwhelmed. You need sometime to relax, maybe a mini vacation on a weekend.
• Indonesia
31 Oct 09
Thanks for the well structured advice :) Anyway, I am a boy and she is my girlfriend, not boyfriend ;)
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
5 Nov 09
It sounds to me as if the real problem here is probably the breakdown of your relationship. That is real stressful. I know...been there. When you are going thru that, it makes everything else that is mildly stressful seem oh so much worse than it would otherwise. I think it helps to talk. Maybe you would feel better if you talked about the problem that is bothering you the most and my guess is that would be your relationship. I could be wrong but I know that when I was going thru a breakup or whenever there were problems in my relationship, it seemed as if everything else in my life was going down too. Talking about it with others who'd been thru it helped me. maybe it will you too.
@raynejasper (2322)
• Philippines
29 Oct 09
..Hi.. I have been in that situation too and I do understand that feeling.. For me, I even get depressed because I can't think of anything positive.. However, I came across with the movie, The Secret and this gives me a break.. the movie is really good and it encourages you to go on.. It became an inspiration to me and boost my confidence that everything will be alright.. If you can't have a copy of that movie, you can download the e-book of The Law of Attraction.. this is really very good.. It could help.. It will teach you something.. Believe me, after watching this you will be happy.. Anyhow, I think you need to breath.. Go somewhere where you could breath.. I mean, go to a place where you only think of yourself and enjoy being alone.. this way, you can be able to release the negative things and feelings you've been holding.. You will find that after doing this, you will gain more courage and clear your mind so that you can think very carefully and not make mistakes again..
• United States
29 Oct 09
Its difficult to remain calm when there are so many stress triggers around us, Work,Friend,Family, Ourselfs.. Alot of people are unhappy with the way there life is going but finds it difficult to change it. Its like being the Happiest person at work and then your boss comes in and ruins it for ya.. Weve all been there we cant try to please everyone only ourselfs. if were not happy then nothing around us is going to work or feel right.
• Indonesia
31 Oct 09
Thanks for your kind words :)
@mrsjbelle (1640)
• United States
29 Oct 09
Sadly yes I feel this way quote often. One way I get thru it is to rely on my faith and try to remain positive although it is very difficult to do sometimes. Don't worry if it doesn't work out with one partner there will always be another out there. Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end. Do you have a friend or family member you can confide in? I always feel better when I talk about my issues. Try to hang in there.
@jenrettn (43)
• United States
29 Oct 09
I know how you feel. That is where I was about 6 months ago. I was getting the run around from my significant other and thought he was just playing me. He moved out of the place we rented together. My salary was just barely getting me by. I was doing so much extra work at my job because others pretended they couldn't. I was not getting rewarded for the extra work I was doing. On top of it all, my best friends and I were moving into different mental mind frames. So one night, I sat down and cried all of my frustration out. The next morning I woke up and decided everything was going to be okay. I made my mind believe that my boyfriend moved out because he didn't deserve me, my extra effort at work was going to get me a raise (or something) and started making new friends who understood me better. Keep your head up. Sometimes life gets easier when we learn to let go.