Have you ever contemplated suicide? - I have.
By Hanan_x3
@Hanan_x3 (294)
United States
November 20, 2009 11:14pm CST
I have. So many times. Life is not worth anything. Literally. I mean, I'm very happy in life. I have people who love me and I love others. I have a great boyfriend (sometimes) and a wonderful family (sometimes). I also have some pretty cool friends.
But I always find myself thinking I don't want to live. And I really don't. The only reason im living is because its a sin to kill yourself.
A couple of days ago, I was sitting on my balcony. I got up and stood right at the edge. I imagined myself dropping onto the cement with my body all bloody. Then I actually got closer to actually jump, but I stopped myself.
I sat down and started crying. I don't know why I want to jump. I just do. Life is not worth it.
But don't get me wrong. I am a happy person.
I just see no point in life.
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@machizmo (279)
• United States
21 Nov 09
I think everyone gets down but only a few make plans to carry it out. I would think about who will miss you if you pass out of this world. It is alot more people than you think or realize. Anyone that has talked to you in the last week or month would remember you and that is not counting friends and relatives. Life is not always fun but I believe we are all here for a reason.
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
22 Nov 09
hanan__3x selfish you are really really selfish. so no wonder you see no point in life, did you ever think of someone other than yourself. your parents, your boyfriend, people who love you, okay go take up something to help other people, quit thinking of yourself all the time, volunteer at your local hospital or libray or nursing home,get out of the pity party you are throwing for yourself. you say you are happy, prove it, go help someone else quit being selfish,think of someone besides yourself, make yourself amount to something. so I sound harsh. well here I am where I never wanted to be because this economy made us homeles and you have it all and are moaning , get real, I wou ld love to be back in an apartment with my son but he is out of work and I am 83 and have a bad leg, so here I am in a retirement home. so count your blessing life could be much worse for you, quit boo hooing and start helping someone else. grow up.
