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This just came to me again just this morning. This morning was better than that off yesterday, well for those who have read my post yesterday they would know what happened. lol Well, this morning was a so-so start, not that bad but not that great either. But then there are just people even people you care about who just makes your life a big confusion. I am talking about my brother and my mother, i know in a way they care for me since i am their relative but then, they do a lot of constructive criticism..hahahah thats what i call it, because even though i know they care for me, they still hurt me in so many ways. I am not perfect for them, i have hurt them in ways that i know they could not get over it, yes they could not get over it because they are those people that tend to have memories that do not forget. That when they get mad or upset, they would retaliate it back to you over and over again. Like just this morning, they saw my daughter with her foot hurt because her shoes was new and it was creating blisters in her feet..and as a mother i was doing some remedies to it by putting a bandage and a band aid so she wont feel the pain on the blisters as she goes to school. But here goes my brother and my mother, telling why would i buy her such shoes?!?!? But i just did not answer back because i know it could create more arguments, but they just do not stop! They were like telling me why would i buy such cheap shoes..blahblah..i was dumb to buy such cheap shoes, i do not have to tell them that IT WAS ALL I COULD AFFORD and IT WAS JUST RIGHT FOR MY BUDGET! and they were like rubbing on my face that i could have afford much more expensive shoes if i know how to save, if i could have a better job or if i could have stick to one child blahblah..and in so many ways they were hurting me because they know of my situation, that me and my huby has to stick to a budget to get through everyday. And all i did was keep silent to avoid further arguments..to avoid any more complications between us. What i cannot understand is why do they have to do that? when in fact they know what i am going through. I could not afford to resign to my current job because it is hard to find a job right now, given the economy plus i am pregnant. Being pregnant is another issue with them because they keep on insisting it is not a blessing, i should not have become pregnant..and i am like, what do they want me to do? abort it? do much greater sin? :( It is hard for us to save because we have kids to feed, bills to pay..plus when my mom and even my brother who is also married get short of cash, they also run to us to borrow even if we barely get to have extra! It is hard because i am not the type of person who answers back to people i love and care about. and they know..and i am like my father, we both are alike. We do not talk, we would rather keep it to ourselves..unlike my mom and brother who torments me almost everyday with these words, rubbing all my mistakes in life. I know i have the choice to answer back or get another house and move out. Yet it is still not the right time since money is quite hard these days. So sorry i know the post have been so long, but i have to get this out of my chest or else it will remain here the wholeeee day. Thank you for those who have patience to read this post..