What do you want to say to your partner?

I been wanting to email my partner but until now i haven't done that cause im so hesitant to do it. I always wanted to say SORRY to her for all the thing that i have done in the past. Cause until now, i know i owe her and apology.

i feel bad to my father, he not try to find a good work for our family only my mother who really work for us she already old she got so many bad feeling about her body and specially her diabetes... i try to help her but i am so much busy in school if i help her so much my time in school will be lesser and i might be failed and her effort to sent me in school will be wasted... at this moment my father nephew stay at home and now my mother will find extra money to increase our budget in food. By the way as i see my father was still strong and have a good body to work his weight is 80+ kilos and he also very choosy in food, but i cant tell him bad cause when we talk he always insist he try to help our family but for almost 5 years he always tell a word but never show an action..... I love my mother so much but i cant say it to my father.

I was able to tell him everything that I expected for him to change but unfortunately if I am hoping from it its useless maybe I will just wait for him to be able to understand that I am saying those things to him for his own good. But its waste the waiting.