I am new here and signed up to myLot today....

United States
December 9, 2009 6:11pm CST
I am here hoping to make some decent money. I am disabled and cannot work outside of my home. I need a reliable income for working at home so I can save up and move. I am in a 13year relationship that is dying off because he found someone online. That person has a boyfriend and lives with him and its heart breaking to know that my man wants her more then me. I really cant see myself without him but he insists on wanting her and kicking me out after 13 years. I am truly scared of whats going to happen to myself once I do leave the love of my life. I know that I will never get involved with someone again. It seems that once I finally get comfortable and feel safe in a relationship, it explodes in my face and ends. I cry every day and night because he is truly my soul-mate and I will miss him terribly when I go. I just dont understand how he can throw away 13years for someone he met 2 months ago.
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16 responses
@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
10 Dec 09
I am so sorry about your ordeal in here. Well I think it is really time for you to go I think and hopefully you can find happiness in your situatiion right now despite the problem you are facing now. I know it hurts but you should always be positive in life. Here in Mylot, earnings are not that really big unless you would post a lot and contribute a lot. In my case it is really not enough to give me money monthly. I just do this as a hobby and enjoy the money every now and then.
@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
14 Dec 09
For me relying your earnings in here would mean a lot of effort on your part. I am thinking that you look for other means than Mylot if you would rely on the the net for your earnings. Or if you can find an offline job much better for you. As with your shaky relationship, I really think it's time for you to move on with life being alone. I think that would be best for the both of you. If one party would not be happy anymore with the relationship then its better to let him be free and find his own happiness somewhere else. The truth may hurt but it will free you from the pains you are currently have.
• United States
12 Dec 09
thank you for your thoughts rsa and i do still live with him but only for the time being. its so tough for me financially with no income and even harder to think positive about anything anymore. half my life is over so im really not looking forward to trying or ever having again a relationship, a relationship just dont interest me no longer. i see what you mean about the little money making on mylot, it surely does take a lot to make a dollar. but i will stay here and give it a shot, after all i have nothing to lose now do i.
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• Philippines
10 Dec 09
Wow...13 years of relationship is quite long. But I am sorry to hear about what happened to your relationship with your special someone. Your story made me realize that nothing really lasts forever. I've been with my boyfriend for more than 6 years now. We are happy so far, and I hope we will always be happy in the future. I am scared about experiencing what you have experience with your boyfriend. I really do understand how you feel about it. But maybe sometimes, we really need to say goodbye to someone and move on. That is I guess the best way you can do for now. I believe you can also find someone who is willing to love you for who you are. Just be patient and be strong.
• United States
11 Dec 09
I have been with my bf since September, and we are so happy. I know it's not long but I really hope things can work between us. I want to have someone who I can depend on. The guys I've been with in the past have been terrible for me and just didn't make me happy. I really feel they brought me down. You're right, sometimes, we need to learn to say goodbye.
@lyzabelle (1668)
• Philippines
10 Dec 09
Welcome to Mylot! I'm sure you will enjoy it here. This is a very rewarding site and eye opener. I'm very sorry about your situation. The worst thing is that your man will might leave you for another woman. Me too...I don't understand why he choose that other girl he only meet for two months. Sounds ridiculous to me. Please be strong if he ever leaves you for that woman don't despair...you must go on and don't stay in your unfortunate past. Live on don't look back.
• United States
12 Dec 09
thank you for you input belle its not easy at the moment trying to do anything online and in life but im pushing myself to do so. cause no one else is going to do it for me. yes its disturbing to know he is doing this to me but what can i say, i saw it coming i suppose and guys will be guys. some guys just dont know how the think with the head attached to their shoulders. i am trying very hard to be strong and hiding a lot of my emotions. once i can get my own place and have a steady income (whenever that will be) im sure i will feel better about life... but at this point, thats just not going to happen.
@coolcoder (2018)
• United States
11 Dec 09
I'm sorry to hear about your ordeal with this guy; it must be hard to have to go through all of this. As someone stated before, we're all here to give you an ear if you need to talk things out and get other opinions on the situation. In any case, welcome to MyLot, and I'll see you around in the discussions.
@doormouse (4599)
10 Dec 09
it may sound harsh,but,you can't make someone love you,and do you really want to spend the rest of your life with someone that does'nt love you,things happen for a reason,i know you're upset at the moment but you'll get through it,you have us now,,as for making descent money on here,don't get your hopes up,you can earn a bit but not enough to make life changing descissions with,,anyway that's enough of the boring stuff,,,hello and welcome,hope you enjoy the discussions x
• United States
11 Dec 09
thank you for your feed back. i'm not trying to make him love me at all. thats the last thing i want. i hope to get through this, because at this point it is discourging and life isn't very nice to me anymore. im involved with a few differnt online jobs similar to this one, and its annoying how slow the money builds up. when you have no income its depression.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
10 Dec 09
First off, welcome to mylot. There are a lot of people here that will lend you a listening ear and will be there for you as you go through this journey in your life. No, as far as making some decent money online, I can go ahead and tell you that it is really difficult. Right now I am struggling to try to make enough to just pay one of our family's bills per month. However, that doesn't mean that it can't be done. You are going to have to be prepared for a lot of hard work and a lot of time on the computer. Best of luck to you.
• United States
11 Dec 09
yes, thats what i am struggling to do myself, and i lost my jeep cause i dont have an income so now it sits looking pretty in my driveway. my boyfriend didnt want to help me make the payments because he says "its not his bill", but when he needs money for bills he comes to me asking to get money somehow. im normally online most of the day and night so im hoping to start earning fast.
@johnnykay (1056)
• Hungary
10 Dec 09
always look on the bright side of life!:) and never give up! the life is not always good, i hope you'll find someone who really loves u! have a nice day! johnnykay
@sublime03 (2339)
• Philippines
10 Dec 09
Hi Robinino! Welcome to mylot and hopefully you do earn enough here or online. I am sorry to hear that he wants to leave you for somebody he just met 2 months ago. As we all know we cannot truly understand what is going thru guys minds but all I can say is take care of yourself as much as you can. I understand that it would be difficult to leave but life goes on. If you are meant for each other maybe he has to go thru some other things before he realizes that he left someone special. Some people see it where maybe you need to just spend time separately for now just so you can appreciate the person more. They say, there are times that you get so tired of your significant other and would like to spend time for yourself. But yet again, it really depends on the person. Be strong and know that you are not alone in this world. There is so much happening around you especially christmas coming. So cheer up and put a smile on your face. There is more to life than relationships with men.
@sunnycool (12714)
• India
10 Dec 09
Hi Robinino,welcome to mylot.You shouldnt feel that you are alone mylotters are there for you all times.your boy friend should feel bad coz he is the one who is actually disabled in his heart your disablity might be physical but he doesnt even know that he has a sick heart which cannot love his girl friend. try to make the best of you in here and respond to all the responses you have received to this discussion and make sure that they are good enough.I have sent you an message friend and hope you can find an good earning there are too.have a nice day friend.
@allknowing (136378)
• India
10 Dec 09
Welcome to myLot. You will like it here.You have a challenge to face and challenges could be quite absorbing if you take it in the right spirit. Hang on to people who can support you in this crisis and take one step at a time. There must be something greater in store for you than an ordinary relationship. A man who could just leave you in the lurch like this is not worth shedding your tears over. Move on. You must be having some support groups who help the disabled.
@Emvy548 (387)
• India
10 Dec 09
Welcome to myLot! It is unfortunate that you are facing the end of a relationship but you must remember that it is not the end of life. A good way to get over it soon is to think beyond the relationship. It is surprising how much can change for you once you think beyond a certain realm that you may have created for yourself. If someone has thought beyond you in his realm you can also do the same and plan your future. Leave your options open at this time and take each day as it comes. Rely on good friends to give you advise and ensure that you have a financial backup plan if you need money. Last but not the least, share your thoughts, even online like on myLot and get excellent inputs like this one ;-)
• United States
10 Dec 09
Welcome to Mylot. I am pretty new to. Sorry about your relationship that sucks.
• United States
10 Dec 09
Welcome to mylot and I'm really sorry about your situation! I wish you the best of luck. I'm sure things will work themselves out.. you deserve better than him. Message me if you need to talk. -Brittany Brydahl
• Indonesia
10 Dec 09
yes of course I also making money from home in www.peoplestring.com and now i still find friend to joint and making money from home without go outside just have good internet connection and access it. I think.
• China
10 Dec 09
Ha,if you just want to make money here,then you must have a good english skill,and you must have task to discuss.I admin mylot is a good site.
• Philippines
10 Dec 09
hi robinino... Welcome to my lot.Just like you i am also new in this site. We are hoping to make money here but on my part i just feel comfortable by expressing myself though my thoughts that i can shared through the different discussions in myLot.Well dont focus yourself too much on that guy.You still have more opportunities to come in your life. I know how it hurts you so much for losing that 13 yr old relationship with him. I know what you feel right now but just bear in mind that everything happens in our lives has its purpose. Be enlightened, one day he will realized how important you are. There is always light after the darkest part of your life. keep going, he is not the only person who will make you smile. God is just around and friends are there to keep you going..... God bless and be blessed.....