Am I backwards?

Everybody's unique in the way that they express or deal with emotions and stress. I guess I'll have to say that I do a little bit of both. If I'm really gloomy and depressed, I'm like you, I can't do anything at all. I want to just sit and crochet (or knit) something, haha. However, sometimes I won't be able to calm my thoughts until I write them down on paper, as if that fills the need to talk about the problem/situation. Must be a girl-thing. I'm practicing amateur psycology here, but perhaps in your case you simply feel the need to lock out the world and hide away for a short while until you overcome the shock. I don't consider that a bad thing, though some people may think that it is (psycologists, for instance), but I do want to say that running away is not a good habit to get yourself into (if that is what you feel you are doing). We need to stand tall and face life's challenges and, if they become overwhelming, perhaps it's time to slow life down a bit. Thanks for sharing, it helps to know other people are having similar situations.

At times I feel like I shut down, but I usually force myself to write it out or channel it in some way. I feel better when I write, even if I have to force the words out. If I don't write stuff out then I'll just keep letting it haunt me and bother me.

I'm more like you in that I find it hard to put personal and deep emotions out there where someone could read it. I tend to keep it to myself, but at the same time, some of the things I wrote when I was overwhelmed or touched deeply are some of the best writing I've done.

In my opinion, you should take notes of any kind of experiences you have, good or bad, as it lets you analyze them later, when you might be in a neutral state of mind. Sometimes I recall different situations in my life and realize "wow, look how I reacted in this instance, I could've done it better", or I find patterns which I manage to change (if they're bad habits or something like that).

Sometimes if I am really sad I can write poetry like mad, but I can't write the stuff that I normally write. If I am happy or normal I can't really write poetry, weird I know. If I am stressed I can not really concentrae enough to write. But the writing I do is not really creative writing it is more self help,informational writing and product reviews. The more creative stuff comes out when I am sad.

I can't write well when I am filled with emotions. I try to be silent, pray and meditate. If I can't be silent, I speak my mind out. Sometimes, I shout but I cannnot write. When I find that I have regained my normal self, then I can write clearly with all my thoughts easily flowing.