Letters From An All Too Familiar World: #4

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May 13, 1999 - 3rd A little ditty I wrote for you off the top of my head. Maybe it'll be so good as to be a hit song someday - Blues, of course. "Everyday I see your face in the space of my mind. I wish it would stay, just one more day, trying to trace the things that made these days so empty and so long." "I walk alone in the days of emptiness, never-ending, so baby, don't leave me alone and I can't be in love in the same places that you and I used to share, and can't be without you. I know you don't want me anymore, but I blame myself and I'm on my knees, even though I know you won't take me back." "Forgive me for the hurt I've caused, but I need your love and it's breaking me down. The little bit of encouragement has become a fairy tale and there's just no more space to believe anymore." "So here I am, about half a man, standing alone feeling like I lost my only real friend, and my happiness when you decided to go." "I think about you because I've got nothing left to hold on to in my lonely world." "The first time my heart was ever touched by something so strong, was the day I realized you were the only one for me, thick or thin." I guess this is the thin, but we did agree for better or for worse. It seems like you've abandoned me - but I guess I can't blame you. No body asked for the course of events, they just happened and how it's turned out is the way it is. My love for you is always there no matter what. Even though you lost your faith in me, I still believe you care enough to understand the pain I feel in my heart and the suffering inside. It's everyday, every night - breaking me. I can't control it - it's so scary. Maybe things will change before it's too late. I love you dearly Doug