Dating Experts Wanted!

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I'm 18, and my only relationship lasted for 10 days - that was back when I was 16! I currently like someone - my best friend - very badly! We always have fun together and we always find ways to just talk about whatever is on our minds. We both love singing and laughing and just talking. We're both very creative... but as far as physical attractiveness goes... I'm not even a 5. I'm overweight and he's a twig! I'm very much afraid of making him look bad - plus I'm not even sure if he'd consider dating someone like me! He did say once to someone that he wouldn't date me, because I seemed to sad all the time - I've been working with my confidence, and lately, others have been telling me how happy and positive I seem. I fear he used my mood as a cover-up... how can I show him that I can really make him happy?? I do what everyone advises; everyone says that just being cute, being nice, helping him out a lot, talking with him a lot, smiling at him a lot, even texting a smiley face just once in a while usually lets a guy know you're interested... I really think I'm "in love" with him. I realized all my poetry is about him... when I think of something, he's always on my mind. I always wonder how he's feeling... I get really excited when he makes eye contact with me... and I feel like my heart just JUMPS into my skull and slowly flutters and sinks all the way down. I don't get speechless around him, because I'm very used to being around him... but I want to tell him "I love you" without really having to SAY it with words. I don't want to scare him away... and I don't want to make him look bad. What do I do? I'm very confused and a little afraid of our friendship ending...