You are afraid of ............?

I used to have a fear of exams earlier on. But later, when I started to know that I am going to flunk anyway, as I haven't prepared, I lost the fear and would just stare at a blank sheet, scribble something and come back. I somehow grew tired with the idea of examinations, and fear of doing well, and then the rush for a job etc... It's just not my type of life. I wish I was a mendicant meditating in some cave, instead of being busy running around to make money. What a waste of time? Really, 60 to 70 years of your life just goes into this, and finally what do you realize, just that you are breathing your last few breaths on your deathbed to leave everything behind, and there has not been any efforts towards self-realization, which is the sole purpose, we are all born for. We forget the prime reason, and get caught in this daily life, with all the unwanted activities. Sorry boss, I hate the idea of exams. If I see the word it irritates me and I get angry. Ha ha ha!