this is one of the things that inspires me...

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Since I was young ive always believed in someone up there, but growing away from my parents and was always left with a nanny, i grew up without love and affection that ive longed for from my parents and my siblings and i didnt share common interests. I grew up thinking and longing for a complete family and wish history wouldnt repeat itself once ill have my own family in the future. And so I have been wounded as a child, i really wasnt enjoying my childhood most of the time my aunts and uncles would make me feel more of cinderella's character. And so I became rebellous. I didnt want to be treated like a normal teenager as I was growing up I wanted to be loved and wanted more of an attention. I knew I was unhappy but didnt want to admit to myself.. I met friends who were on the same page and scenario as I was. LOST... Still I wanted to be in a complete family. Ive tried a couple of things which I knew would ruin my Life but i was in denial. Until such time, I finally admitted to myself that I needed help. My dad whos been out of the country most of the time just so he can send us to a good, high profiled school didnt want to believe me anymore since I have learned to cheat and lie to him just because I didnt want to admit to myself that I was in pain and because of that pain I wanted myself to be engulfed on things that I would rather have a bad impact on rather than the ones I loved. So, I finally decided to have a paradigm shift. I knew I had to go somewhere so everything I have planned on seemed to have run smoothly. When i opened my heart, I finally had the freedom to tell the world that I was free from the bondage. Now that I have a family of my own, although its not as perfect as I expected it to be I'm more than happy with my kids, boy and a girl. They complete me and As I listen to these songs, I'm always reminded of the journey that made me whole as a person. So happy now, so full of contentment although I have my ups and downs still I became a better person because of the obstacles I had encountered with my past.