First Love Never Dies

my first love was during class eighth,i know its too early but i developed feelings for that guy but with time i discovered out that he was a jerk...and i'm happy right now...and i don't know why i developed some kind of hatred for him in my heart..

My first love was a guy in high school. He was not my boyfriend, but somehow I knew he liked me a lot. For two years, without having much interaction I kept adoring him. I did have the intention of telling him what I had for him, but not right away. I wanted to wait till graduation. However, at one point, my best friend went to him and told him that I liked him. She also asked him whether he liked me. According to her, he was extremely happy, but after a few minutes of thinking he said he liked me only as a friend. I got the message and was broken into pieces. I did not expect this from him since he was giving me all the positive signals. So I decided to pull away. Meanwhile, everytime he saw me in the hallway he tried to say hi to me. I was so depressed about what he told my friend that I ignored him. He even tried to catch me in my neighborhood. But I was gone totally. But I must say all that time I still had some feelings for him. Poor guy even tried to talk to me from his car everytime we saw each other at the stop sign. But I was firm that I would not talk to him. And now after 5 years he is engaged with someone else and here I am with someone else. I saw his picture with her on facebook. They go to UC davis. Do I still feel for him? No, as time passed by I started understanding that he was too weak to let my friend know about his feelings. Also, I figured out that he was too religious for me. We still bump onto each other on the road, but I stay calm at all times while he keeps staring at me.

For me, it's just a saying. I didn't end up with my first love. I married my true love. Maybe it's just the ecstatic feeling of falling in love for the first time that doesn't die, but the "love" itself for the person can die away.