Fed up with life...sometimes feel like it...

I am feeling the same way. I got a call from my friend and it amounts to there is some problem with their finances. Their savings account has been closed down at the bank and she called me to find out why. (Humm, I don't work for their bank so why the frick is she calling me????) She also expected me to find out if there was holds on her husband, an immigrant from Mexico, and that probably "I" was supposed to report that to Social Security. The situation went from there to if I had taken down my Christmas tree and why the heck I hadn't (My BF had kidney stones and wasn't able to do any Christmas shopping for me, so we agreed to wait for Christmas present exchange until later. I decided to keep the tree up, which is an artificial tree, until we could manage to do our Christmas). She doesn't pay my bills and has a huge long history of borrowing money from me. She borrowed another $129 from me to apply for her husband's green card. I shouldn't dump on you, but you can get the basic idea of how I am feeling. I planned on a quiet month away from college, being able to clean house and do whatever. But that was taken away and I am wondering why the frick I am trying to do anything. I just ought to let the place develop rats and mice and eventually fall down around my ears. I couldn't help the fact that I had to take my BF into ER every other day starting Dec 22, and he ended up being admitted on the 27th. I was by his side from the 27th to the 31st to make sure he was okay. I brought him home and had him staying with me from the 31st through to the 4th. I love the man with all my heart and don't begrudge him the time. But having a friend that is so domineering and willing to tell me when and how to do things is getting a bit old!!! I am feeling a lot like WHY THE HE11 AM I HERE AND WHY AM I HANGING AROUND????? So, chdsandeep, don't feel alone. We need to step back and see if there is one thing that makes walking this earth, in the form we are currently in, worthwhile.

chdsandeep hi oh yes I was so fed up when I came here but it was either be here in this retirement home with a room and a bed to sleep on and three meals a day then going with my son to homeless shelters after he had lost his joband we had been evicted from our apartment, we were homeless. my son feared for my safety as I am 83 and partly handicapped, and we were homeless as I said. so he had me put here where my social security and ssI check pay my rent each month. he is in gov. sponsored housing for now and now has some job leads too. so now I am living one day at a time and just glad to be alive and see each day as a gift from God. we will survive,we will get back into an apartment this is the year it will happen. we hAndle it one day at a time, my son comes to see me eAch week, and we support each other. we are alive, we will survive.