I just miss him SO MUCH!
By dreemsofdark
@dreemsofdark (714)
United States
January 27, 2010 4:41pm CST
So, I have a boyfriend, he's perfect for me.
We've only been officially dating for a month, but we've been talking for 2 months.
Anyways, he lives 180 miles away. We visit eachother every weekend and we are already very much in love.
When I was in college I was also in a long distance relationship, and I don't know why or how or maybe if I am just not remembering things the right way, but I never missed someone SO MUCH as I do Ethan (my boyfriend)
It's so bad that the minute he walks out the door to go back home I'm in tears. Last monday, I was on the brink of tears all day because I missed my boyfriend SO BADLY!
When I was in the long distance relationship back in college not only did I not miss my ex the way I miss Ethan, but we would go a couple of weekends not seeing eachother and I wouldn't even think anything of it! In fact, I would only see him once or twice a month and it was fine.
Ethan is different though... it's like he's a drug and I'm having severe Ethan withdraws! I don't know what to do! I just want to hug him and hold him and kiss his face and smile at him and make eye contact with him and hold his hand while having conversation.
Which is another thing, before Ethan, I HATED PDA's and now I'M the one that's all lovey dovey in public, and ALSO, i very much disliked pet names (like babe) but now when I hear Ethan call me baby or babe it makes me heart pound even harder.
I think I'm just hopeless.
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@Hubfee (665)
• Thailand
28 Jan 10
When love comes around and it knocks you down. Hmmm look for more hobby to do dreemsofdark. Make yourself a little more busy so you won't miss him like killing yourself. I also have the time that I miss my girlfriend so badly. I took her as my inspiration to do many things so that I'll have many stories to talk with her when we'll meet again. Sometimes, I just do some handmade things to surprise her.
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@dreemsofdark (714)
• United States
28 Jan 10
Thanks! Believe you me though I stay extremely busy. Not only do I work full time but I also hold a side business at home reupholstering furniture and making costumes and clothes, so I am a very busy person. Ethan takes up every thought though.
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@se7enthbird (8307)
• Philippines
27 Jan 10
now isnt it so cool to be inlove. isnt it so good to find someone who is so perfectly fit for you. i know where are you coming from and i know how you feel for that is what i was when i met my wife (married with her for 7 years already) i was never been inlove the way i am with her and like you i was never that showy with my past relationships. it was so cool that i am not shy to give her a hug to look her eyes and kiss her in public. when we are together it was always a cool way of living and this is the kind of liveing that i really wanted. so married her and now we have a 4 year old son and his pictures appears as my avatar. its okay missing him for you will appreciate every hellos and every weekend for you know he will be coming. hope this relationship last forever. happy valentines day in advance cause for you it sounds like valentines day in everyday. 
@dreemsofdark (714)
• United States
28 Jan 10
That is SO SWEET! THank you for your sweet words! Ethan has been divorced before and he tells me that he's also never felt this way. WHo knows maybe we finally found something or maybe we're both just so infatuated. Valentine's day WILL be awesome!
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@skysuccess (8858)
• Singapore
29 Jan 10
dreemsofdark,
I am really happy for you to have found the one - Ethan, but I'd just like to add some words of caution here.
Being in love is definitely great, but letting your feelings get out of control and become obsessive is another. 2 months and you are head over head is really not I would call loving. I can understand the yearnings and pandering for a physical presence, yet I'd advise that you get a hold of yourself here, face reality and be practical.
Take it easy first. Yes, you might have felt something different in this man; but it's too early to decide on anything. It could be a product of your emotional needs not tendered while he is slogging elsewhere, you will never know. My suggestion is to be truthful with yourself, your circumstances and take it one step at a time.
Please allow time to give you some directions.
@dreemsofdark (714)
• United States
29 Jan 10
YOU, Skysuccess, are ABSOLUTELY right.
you wouldn't believe that I actually came to terms with it JUST last night!I'll tell you.
I looked at myself in the mirror and said "WHat the F*** is going on?!" and I said and REALLY thought about how I felt, and I REALIZED that I was acting out and going crazy based on my INSECURITIES. I said out loud to myself "Don't act out on your insecurities" and it was suddenly like DING DING DING DING and all this flood of realization that I was acting like a crazy lady came into my head! I was like HOLY CRAP!It was an amazing feeling and I feel much better about everything going on. So yes, thank you very much for your support and words of wisdom.
True friends don't tell you what you WANT to hear, but what you NEED to hear.
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