Did you at any time feel, that 'you deserved better than this ' in anything?

Hi Buchi_bulla, actually I worked very hard during my degree first year, and I was certain I would get first class. But I was shocked. I was informed I failed. I couldn't believe that I failed! I was pretty depressed. I had a nice friend at that point of time, she was a sai baba devotee. She took me to University, even though she was sickly. She make me fill in an application asking for recounting and revaluation. For about two months after that I could not concentrate on studies as I was dejected, and all alone, as my father was abroad. I hated myself around that period. I felt ashamed to attend the classes as I felt my friends were laughing at me. Slowly I started regaining interest. Soon the result was out at recounting. Apparently, only my objective marks were listed, not the marks in main answer sheet! But by the time I had simply too much of catching up to do. :( Second year I didnt fare that well. :( I cleared the papers, but I could have done better if it was not for this debacle. :)

Well Buchi bulla,i think we human are not satisfied with anythings and we need more more.I think everybody feel this,somebody say openly somebody keep this in their mind.I am happy and i think what i deserved it is more than enough.

I do not feel for any better things as my nature is accepting the things as it is. If I get less marks in any subject, in which I was expecting a little more, i think that I might have erred somewhere and that is why this less marks and try to work hard in that particular subject and try to get more marks. If any of my friends or relatives do not give proper respect to me I think that my attitude to may be not upto the mark and try to change myself. So in this way instead of thinking about betterment, i try to change myself and achieve the better position, if I can not succeed in my attempt, I will try to be happy with whatever is given to me

Yes I deserve to be living a more comfortable life than what I have but I am partly to be blame on this situation now got married early & my husband is not responsible enough to meet the needs of the family I just thought in the first place that I am solving a problem but I am adding problem to this mess hoping that I can get out of this situation before its too late.