I Can't Think Of Anything To Say

@Janey1966 (24170)
Carlisle, England
February 3, 2010 8:14am CST
I have had a strange couple of days and I really don't know what to make of it. All I will say is I received an email off someone I knew (online, only met in person once) before John and we've since chatted via Windows Live Messenger. My head is in a spin and I don't know why. Has this ever happened to anyone else? Why is life so complicated? I'd never questioned my marriage (even though it's not the greatest) until now. Perhaps I'm flattered that he wants to be friends again. I don't know. I'm Confused.com!
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• Boston, Massachusetts
3 Feb 10
Hi Jane, That's also what's happening to since i encountered that glitch here. although i know the reason behind it but i am kinda exhausted..given the fact that we are so busy too in the office. we have lots of things to accomplish...lots of due dates. i know we can make it as a team but i am just so tired. i am not complaining about my work because i love my job my body is complaining. i too never missed a day for my gym. i am losing weight (yes..that's true). i think i need some rest and extra time for sleep to gain my sanity (hehehe) and strength. See...i am still here trying my best to make quality responses and trying to meet my target for the day. Well, it seems like he has an impact in your life. he's making you confused...just be on guard...something can spark out of it especially that you are seemed flattered about him..his words!
• Boston, Massachusetts
4 Feb 10
Well said Nyholly! you said it right. now Jane you have all the time to reflect on to be fully happy...kinda tough but i know you will be able to manage this. good luck.
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
3 Feb 10
Thanks Winky. I know John loves me and I would be devastated if he found someone else...because we haven't finished what we started in our own relationship. You see what I mean? I think he just likes seeing me in the house when he gets back from work. It was great when we both had money and could travel more. I enjoyed myself with him back then. Now there's nothing to look forward to. Just the odd soccer match we go and see, sometimes we go out socially (but not very often) and I like it when Mum comes to stay for a couple of days and she BLOODY WELL KNOWS what I'm feeling but I can't admit it to her. She paid for my wedding dress for God's sake. I can't understand why I'm questioning all this NOW. Why NOW?
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• China
8 Feb 10
hi janey: i think you should go out of the ralationship quick,time goes by,and you will get the trap deeper and deeper,it makes you really painful,and it's difficult to control your feelings.at finally,missing eventually defeated your mind...both of you know you shouldn't be together,because both sides are doing the wrong things to your family.if your husband get to know this,even he forgive you,but the scar still leave in his heart,and will you be able to return to your previous love life?
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
8 Feb 10
I wasn't going out with Mick, I was just Messaging him. I only met him once on a train station before setting off to see John. I wasn't serious about John then but Mick didn't convince me otherwise which is why I saw more of John than Mick. I hope all this makes sense! I have not heard from Mick for 5 years and I really cannot understand why he's contacted me after all this time. I do know, however, that I've read too much into it. He saw me on the webcam and I could see his face drop as I have put weight on since I saw him last. He is a shallow man, no doubt about it, which is probably why he can't keep his girlfiends. I shall carry on Messenging him but on my terms. I realise more than ever that John is the man for me. Granted, our relationship isn't perfect (who's is?) but I'd rather be with him than anybody. I really mean that too.
@Sandra1952 (6047)
• Spain
3 Feb 10
Hello, Janey. If you've been having a rough time of things, and then somebody comes along who isn't involved and only has good times with you, it's very tempting to reach out to that person for a little relief from the situation you're in. You feel wanted, and it's a great feeling, and perfectly natural. I've been there myself - still am, as a matter of fact. These feelings don't mean that you don't love your husband or that you're going to ride off into the sunset with a handsome internet stranger, but you do need to organise them so you can think through what you want to do about them. I'd suggest not contacting the other person for a couple of days. Can you talk over your problems with your husband? I assume there must be problems, if you're questioning your marriage. If not, do you have a trusted friend you could talk to? Only you can decide what to do, but I think you need help in arriving at that decision.
• Spain
3 Feb 10
Oh, Janey, that's a really big problem, and I don't think your libido is that low, actually. If that's case, a meeting with this man could be quite dangerous. Although, having said that, if a good 'seeing to' would help and there would be no chance of John finding out, it may help things at home. From your responses here, it sounds as if you're bored and depressed - not a good combination, and not good for your marriage either.
@RawBill1 (8531)
• Gold Coast, Australia
3 Feb 10
Reading this reminds me of friends of ours who about six or seven years ago had a nasty separation and divorce. They had a young child and I think it affected him as he is very quiet and shy now. Anyway, it all started when he started communicating with an old ex girlfriend from school through a website that re-unites old school friends here in Australia. He then started going away on "Fishing" weekends, which were actually weekends where they would meet half way between the cities they lived in. This was a four and a half hour drive each way for both of them to meet in the middle! She found out about the affair by stumbling across his emails to her one day and she was not impressed. It all turned very nasty for a year or so until they got their lives back on track. He ended up moving in with the old ex girlfriend and they got married and had more kids and she re-married someone else too. I think they are both happy with their lives now, but whenever we see her, she is still very bitter towards the father of her son! I think you need to be very careful with situations like this as they can lead to places you might not want to go!
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
3 Feb 10
Don't worry, I won't meet this guy and from what he was saying, I don't think he wants to involve himself with a married woman (me) anyway. He likes me as a friend...story of my life lol.
@sirknight (118)
3 Feb 10
i have had many strange emails online in the past but if you feel that it deos not concern you with such email just ignore it and go and have a coffee how can a nameless faceless online person upset you ,i would get on with being online and talking to my freiends and the people that i care about ,so why is that email so strange just ignore that email and get on with your marrige ,there are a lot of strange spammers online i would just blaock that person
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
3 Feb 10
He isn't nameless and faceless, I've actually met the guy, before I saw my (now) husband on a regular basis, as I used to commute. I met Mick on Preston Station before I hopped on the train for one of my commutes to John. He wanted to kiss me, I could sense that, but nothing happened...and I ended up marrying John!
@udayrao2 (781)
• India
4 Feb 10
Hi Janey I think you should ignore this - it happens at times to all of us and if you really try to take this seriously & solve it there will be more unhappiness - so leave it be- you always think something you dont have may be better - whatever it ( person or thing) maybe. After some time things will b e normal and you will forget all that.
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
4 Feb 10
I have decided not to let this man get to me. After all I've known him in the past and chose John, so what does that tell you? I'm being silly and I should just grow up lol.
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
4 Feb 10
What Holly said! I can't say it any better, so I'm not going to try. Good luck though.
3 Feb 10
Isn't it a nightmare when that happens! My advice would be try not to worry about it - easier said than done I know... I think it happens to all of us from time to time. Makes you questions if you made the right choices? Makes you wonder if the grass is greener. I've not had it for a while, although the last time was when I dreamt about an ex, and woke up wondering if I had made the right choice. Make a deal with yourself not to get in touch for a few days, and spend that time focsing on the positives you have now. Then you will feel in a better place to be friends if you want, or to leave it if that feels better.
@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
3 Feb 10
Thanks for your support and welcome to MyLot. Yes, you are right, it's best for me not to dwell on things too much. It's just so odd that he "found" me. I have emailed him a few times but he didn't know it was me due to the name so he ignored it. I don't think he's one that checks his emails a lot like I do...so when I received one off him...from an email address I knew, I couldn't believe it! He has been "looking for me" for ages and didn't know my new surname once I got married. He said he found me on Facebook but I told him I don't use that anymore. I'm amazed he hasn't been snapped up actually. It's been 5 years since we last "chatted." All very odd!
• United States
4 Feb 10
You have lost some interest in your husband. Maybe your husband does not give you the spark from when you were first married. Life is not really complicating but is what you make it to be. You seem to be feeding of of emotions not from whats in your heart.