never doubt the love

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If i should be thankful to anybody, aside from my family, it would be to my friends. i didn't know how much they care for when i was still on my dialysis sessions. They didn't even bother to show up when i was confined in a hospital. i wasn't angry either when they were a no-show. i thought, after all, they were too busy with their respective works. but i was wrong, damn wrong. All those times, i was so clueless - that they really cared. It wasn't until nayz told me that had a fund-raising campaign inside their work premise. At first, she didnt mention about what that cause was for until i asked her. She told me, it was for me. i was so damn touched when i heard those two words. I didn't know if it was just me or just because of the blurriness of my eyesight that i saw her tearjerky. But if ever it was the reason, i wouldn't let it happen. I wouldn't want to see all my loved ones cry for me. My mum and Dad who i really dear so much, always cried for me but i always felt undeserving. i always made their lives so miserable. All their lives, they dedicated themselves to us. And now that they're suppose to be retiring from work and taking care for us, they seemed to be doubling their respective tasks as parents. i know it was my fault when i let myself got sick. Now they're suffering because of me. They said that a problem solved created two new problem. I guess that is so right as far as my family's problem is concerned. Although we overcame the first problem (the dialysis and transplantation), new problem came in. our resources are getting scarcer. We have to go and find buyers for our lands. They said that every problem is a test of faith - to whatever faith you are into- which i always agree. Im soo thankful to my parents that they enlightened us to Christ. They always taught us not to lose hope and faith. Whenever im so down and call my mum for comfort, she always reads me a passage from the bible. In this way, i always find comfort and peace of mind. I dont know how to end this blog of gratitude for everybody who loves me. But there's only one thing i can say - i never doubt the love you all gave me.