Am I ego??

Hi gi2h_san, I can relate to the 1st part of what you've mentioned. Like you, I would rather stay at home /be on my own or family then to hang around friends. When friends invite me out, it takes me great effort to accept an invitation. Ha, guessed it's an esteem/character thingy. Good thing I have my hubby to "push" me sometimes =) The fact that you raised this matter shows that you're aware of what's happening and thus wish to change... so not all is hopeless. Importantly, RELAX - don't put undue pressure on yourself to change. I'm not providing advice here cos I'm still learning and also, I feel that it's better to speak to someone trusted (e.g. a teacher/parent, etc.) at length to identify root causes and to obtain their support =) For a behaviour to change, the way we think need to change 1st - especially how we see ourselves. So take things one step at a time =)