Life stinks!

And who says it is fair? no one! Thats the rule and that is the one you should be dealing with since you were born in the earth. A lot of people have worst situation than you have but they survived, they learn to survive. And that's what you have to do, learn how to survive, learn how to make yourself worthwhile and worthy of all the things you want. Some things are realy not intended to be given to you that is why you didnt get them. If you want things maybe you should make yourself deserving. if you feel you are falling apart, well you are not falling apart! you just let your sentements and your emotions to rule over you that is why you don't like life. If you want to find the real meaning of life and its essence you start wiht yourself and accepting the facts of life get you to realise how much you have and learn how to appreciate it. One of the essence of life is LOVE. well as i read your words you have no real LOVE. Because if you have you should not fret like that. that's all. (whew!)