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It is really sad, but you've written your feelings down so beautifully. I am hoping that putting it down in words might be a part of your healing process. Our emotions are so strong, they tend to take overwhelm us when we are not cherished or taken care of. You deserve a little retreat, time to take care of yourself. Commune with nature and God perhaps. It's a start. I pray for inner peace and awesome joy, my friend, it is eternal. Hope to hear good things in the near future from you.

spoiled311, Love is multifaceted, multi-dimensional and multi directional - it is definitely not as linear as how you have expressed it. If your claims are correct, then Love is only entitled to the chick with the hottest bod with the prettiest face, as well as the dude with the most cash and assets. Duh - since your tunnel vision did not incorporate other factors into consideration. If you are dissatisfied with something about your situation, then you must learn to evolve your weakness and vulnerability into something more manageable. If you want to change your fate, then logically you must work to change it. If not, you are just plain ranting and at the end of the day, it gets you nowhere. Either one decide upon calculated wait or you got to initiate a change to an existing chess piece that needs adjustment badly. Most people resigned to themselves without much of a fight and get subjected to all sort of environmental influences that they picked up unconsciously and adopt into their self belief. Eventually, these new assimilated information get entangled into their mindset and they form a distinctive negative outlook and definition towards Love & Relationship. Such negativity actually promotes the notion of 'I-am-like-that-so-I-will-be-like-that' - which, IMHO, does little good to one's attitude, even to his/her life as a whole. A relationship does not mark an end of a journey, but a beginning of a new experience, riding on a continuous growing process that began way back even before the person is attached. One does not learn about Love only when he/she is attached - rather, a relationship spring forth a series of test that seeks to assess your understanding of self love and individual evolution. If such training doesn't exist during your singlehood, then the price you pay for learning certain cosmic lessons will double during BGR and cost will triple (or more) if you are married. I say, take your time to recover, but you must simultaneously seek to liberate this psychological bondage you have cramp yourself into. Adopt what's beneficial to you and remove those that only work to hinder your advancement. Only then you can see results in every aspects of your life. Learn to broaden your mind and understand that it's better for Love to be mutual than to be narcissistic. Take care.

Hi, spoiled311. I am very sorry that you are feeling hurt and sad. I hope that you can start to feel like you are in love again. If not then you will have to move on so that you can feel like yourself again. I hope that your marriage will not suffer a day longer. That is how I used to feel too until I prayed to God about my desires. Try to find the strength to do this, it will make you feel so much better. Take care of yourself.

you can ignore all the happenings inside your house even your heart is hurting inside but it might be help you if you will render your life to god and open up all the things that bothered to you and you will soon find the answer, it may not be effective the moment you open your heart to god but it will feel relax to your life.

It's very sad to hear what you're going through. I'm sure you've tried to talk about this one to your partner, have you? Well all I can suggest is, why not try for some counselling? That might help. Maybe it's the only way for the two of you to see what you just can't see about each other (I'm not saying this is all your fault, but you know, it takes two to fix or break a relationship).

sorry to hear that...don't give up! maybe you'll need some open communication and let him know what's hurting you..

Oh I am sad to know how you are feeling right now. That is the first time I heard about your feelings on your marriage right now. I am sad that a once a very jolly person that I know online has become depressed somehow. I do not know the real story behind so I won't be giving advice for you but then be strong and I believe that you and your husband will talk this things over time. I hope and pray that you can find resolution to what you are feeling right now