Fear
By TheRealDawn
@dawnald (85146)
Shingle Springs, California
March 31, 2010 3:31pm CST
Thinking about what I'm afraid of...
facing everybody
being wrong
giving up too soon
staying in a bad situation forever
messing up the kids
being blamed
making the same stupid mistakes with somebody else
not finding out somebody is wrong for me until after I fall for him
my life being so much harder alone
change - I find I'm really afraid of change
messing up my kids
Doesn't fix anything, but it does explain stuff...
What are you afraid of?
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34 responses
@dimple27 (31)
• Philippines
6 Apr 10
well..i'm afraid of heights, water--i mean...like ocean..since i don't know how to swim..i'm afraid of drowning..i'm afraid of closed space..i don't know why..it's just that i don't like or i don't feel at ease when i'm inside a small closed room..i'm also afraid of cockroaches..
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
6 Apr 10
Closed spaces are scary because you're afraid you won't be able to get out...
@dorothy09 (1520)
• Philippines
5 Apr 10
hi there dawnald, I have a lot of fear but as much as possible I am ready to face it and will have strength to face every fear.. I fear to upset anyone, I fear to hurt anyone, I fear to lost my love ones, I fear to see my family in distressed way, I fear to be tempted, I fear my partner be tempted,
I have lot of fears but I am confident God is always with me.
I lift everything to him
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
31 Mar 10
Hi Dawn
Well most of what you have mentioned there is my fears or should I say they where
You can only take the risk, follow your instinct and do what you think is best
Children cope better then what we know
Also the biggest decision is ....... is it good for the Children how it is now........or....... would it be better if you make the change
As for the other you have to leave that to life, I did not think I would ever find someone that would respect and love me for me but I have
I was afraid of being alone but I have found with all the Friends, my Children, I am never alone
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
31 Mar 10
I know Dawn and it was not easy, believe me it wasn't there where times I did not think I would make it, times I thought I would not survive but I focused and I was determinant to make it, specially because my Ex always said I could never make it alone I proved him wrong, but not just that I have had many fights in my Live I was not scared as such of the risks any more I had nothing left to loose, apart from my mind
Dawn I know what you are going through believe me I do when you are ready swallow the fear and stand up to it all Sweet, it took me 6 months to get the courage but once I started I did not back of, not with the threats he made, the things he was doing, nothing stopped me instead it made me more determinant to get out of it, no more abuse and all that
It is not easy Girl and you have to be strong and keep the Children involved as such, but no bad wording about either of you or him
We are all here with you Dawn, if I lived closer I would be there going through it with you by letting you talk and think about it
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@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
I'm thinking that 2 1/2 years of thinking about it plenty!
@zandi458 (28102)
• Malaysia
31 Mar 10
The thing I fear most is being old and alone. I mean when the children have all left the nest leaving me alone wobbling around the house just doesn't register in my mind. So rather than kicking the other one despite the unhappiness, I just try to play the game of patience to reach to the end.
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
NO. Not me, absolutely not. I'd much rather be alone than stay in an unhappy situation. I'd rather split up, get with the wrong person and be happy for a week, than never be happy again...
@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 10
zandi you can also be old and in a bunch of people you do not know,and
really did not want to know and still be lonely. sometimes I do so wish I was back in an apartment with my son w orking again, and doing for myself as I was alone while he was at work and we both were computer ners, but he was there in the apartment so I was not lonely. here I often feel lonely but my son comes to see me and my friend Nelda emails me most every day, so its not so bad now.zandi when that time comes prepare ahead and get into some things that will keep you with other people, and also you can always rent out a room too, just do not shut yourself off from friends.
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 10
hi dawn that is just the way I feel but cannot do that til my son gets a job then I will be out of here. there is lonely and there is alone, big difference.
@babyangie27 (5176)
• United States
31 Mar 10
Well I live with fear everyday. Fear of my daughter disabilities,fear of my own mental issues....and now fear of my servery swollen left foot and ankle....oh yea and fear of all this stuff I keep reading about online that could explain my foot swelling....
@babyangie27 (5176)
• United States
31 Mar 10
It's been swollen for over a week,goes down a bit over night but not by much. It's only the left foot and ankle. My right ankle looks a little swollen but nothing compared to what is going on with my left one. And of course I go online and I see it can be anything from heart disease to cancer...geez! My anxiety is now kicking in to high gear and me and my daughter are home alone so my fear of her having a seizure is in high gear too. Living in fear SUCKS!
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@marguicha (223850)
• Chile
31 Mar 10
I´m sure I fear a lot of things but I didn´t come up with any just now. Mostly I suppose I fear loneliness.
As for your fears, I just want to hug you sweetie. There´s no bravery in doing anything if you don´t have to overcome your fears to a certain point.
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
I've been through enough of those for one lifetime!
@marguicha (223850)
• Chile
31 Mar 10
By all means, YES! Had forgotten in spite that there was another one (smaller) two nights ago.
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@cloudwatcher (6861)
• Australia
31 Mar 10
I guess we all have our fears, Dawn, but when it comes down to the bottom line, the old saying is true: "There is nothing to fear except fear itself"
Regardless of what happens, you can scratch one of those fears from you list. You will NEVER mess up the kids!
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@cloudwatcher (6861)
• Australia
31 Mar 10
He wouldn't do that intentionally, but yes, I can see it could happen. THAT is possibly a grounded fear, but one which you, with all your wisdom, could overcome, or at least minimise.
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
You're right, he wouldn't intentionally, but he isn't always in control of himself...
@goldeneagle (6745)
• United States
1 Apr 10
I am afraid of snakes and spiders. I am not really scared of heights, but I don't do very well at climbing ladders and things like that. I am afraid of not being able to provide for my family, and losing the things that my wife and I have worked so hard for. I am afraid of waking up one day and realizing that I have wasted my life. I am afraid of not being able to work any more...
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 10
hi dawnald you are really too hard on yourself, you are really intelligent, and you cannot ever please all the people all the time'
no matter what you do Dawn, you have to please you once in awhile.
I also dislike change which is why I was in tears when I had to come here,imagine a few weeks before I was living in our apartment with my son, and taking good care of my self and happy, now allhell broke lose
and we ended up apart, and it was a huge change. now I am a lady of unwanted leisure, waited on my room cleaned daily my laundry done, am fed in the dining room, etc my meds dished out to me like I am too old to know what to take and when, I dislike it but it was that or being another statistic of the homeless, no place for an elderly like myself. so am used to it for now. I dont think you will ever do anything that will mess up your kids, you are too smart for that,trust yourself more Dawn. You are a good mom from all I have seen.
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 10
hi dawnald put in a good word for me with Paul too, okay? he he ha ha.
I would like to be in my own room with out anyone tellingme to go to bed at ten or elven and I would not get up at six. he he he.
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
Dear Paul, sent half of that to my friend Patsie. Thanks!!!
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
I'd like to be a lady of leisure...
Dear Paul McCartney - do you have a spare million dollars lying around? lol
@tuyakiki (3016)
• India
31 Mar 10
I am not at all a very brave person.
I am quiet afraid of darkness. I even cannot sleep with lights off. I really get scared. It is a strange feelings.
Second one is a nightmare,it puts me into a bad mood.It awakes me from sleep.
I am also scared of ugly insects like cockroaches and spiders.
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@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
31 Mar 10
Dark doesn't bother me unless it's total dark, and scary insects only bother me if they are too close to me.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
23 Oct 10
The single biggest fear that I have in my life is the fear of being alone. I've never been alone in my life because I always had my mother, father and siblings when I was a child and then I've had my husband for the last nine years of my life. However, I also saw when I was a teenager that spouses do leave and pass away and that is something that I don't really know that I would be able to handle as a mother.
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@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
23 Oct 10
I used to be really afraid of being alone. Not so much any more...
@hexeduser22 (7418)
• Philippines
4 Apr 10
I fear myself because if I lose control of my well being I may exhibit those fears and I know my greatest enemy and my greatest friend would only be myself...
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@Draeke (322)
• United States
2 Apr 10
I'd like to think that i'm not afraid of much. But truth is we are all afraid of somethings.
I'm afraid of what can happen to my kids,
about makin mistakes that can ruin me or my family,
theres a bunch lesser things i suppose, but i worry bout my kids the most.
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@GardenGerty (160996)
• United States
1 Apr 10
I am afraid of everything, and afraid for people to know I am afraid.
You are not old enough to remember the song (unless you have seen it in an old movie)
"Whenever I feel afraid, I stand myself erect, and whistle a happy tune, so no one will suspect I'm afraid. The result of this deception, is very plain to tell: Whenever I fool the people I fear, I fool myself as well. I'm not afraid."
I sang it to you, but I am sure you did not hear it.
Hubby would say "Fake it until you make it." I would say "Pray about it, then jump in and do something."
Whatever you do, you have friends who will listen.
@GardenGerty (160996)
• United States
1 Apr 10
Thanks for clearing that up. I have not watched many movies in about fifteen years or so. My big sister loved to teach me songs that I was barely old enough to sing, long before I was old enough to sit through the movies. I sang this when I was three or four. At five I sang "Moon River" and "Catch a Falling Star", but I diverge. Dawn, you will conquer your fears, and you will walk through one day at a time. Sometimes with your heart pounding, as if it is a tight rope, or a long dark tunnel. You can't go around it, you can't go over it, you just gotta go through it.
@derek_a (10873)
•
1 Apr 10
As a Zen practitioner I would say that there is only one thing that is certain in life and that is change. Life changes and whilst I too have experienced fear from time to time, my meditation is about embracing life as it is, as a lesson for the soul or whatever you would like to call Self.
As I am getting older, I am experiencing a few friends and neighbours coming to the end of their life. I have two friends with inoperable cancer, and that really brings home to me the impermanence, and change in life from the known to the unknown. That is what I am here for, to grow through the fears and anxieties that change brings. As I embrace that in zazen (Zen meditation), I move through it and it disappears for a while until I move on to the next new situation. _Derek
@dawnald (85146)
• Shingle Springs, California
1 Apr 10
first thing that came to my mind was "embracing uncertainty"... lol guess I'm a wee bit of a control freak!
@zed_k4 (17589)
• Singapore
1 Apr 10
My fear or perhaps my biggest worry would be not being able to see my love ones anymore. Not in a dying way.. (well that, too actually)..but something like them going away for good like suddenly moving to another country like a really deserted area and a far away place.. or not being able to right the wrong of someone I love. I don't mind if it happens to myself.. but I care so much about my love ones and their feelings. Never-mind if I get hurt..but they always tell me to take care of myself and I shall honor that. Oh yeah, another worry would be if I can't honor their words too..
@vandana7 (100619)
• India
1 Apr 10
What??? They didnt have airlines then? Now thats News to me.
Seriously, that is something we never thought Dawn - Julius Ceasar, Alexander the Great, Marco Polo. I suspect they were not loved enough or were nagged too much. :)
Zed do your loved ones nag you? :)
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@vandana7 (100619)
• India
2 Apr 10
I am inclined to disagree there biswa. I think the hurt linked to ego can be overcome with understanding the truth, but the hurt that has no logic to it is absolutely ego less, and virtually a pleading in front of god asking him how could he in all his fairness allow this. Where is the ego in that?
@getbiswa2000 (5544)
• India
2 Apr 10
Well, thanks. Nobody has the ability to hurt us. Its our ego that hurts us and makes us believe that the culprit is somebody else.
God bless you
@setsuna26 (2751)
• Philippines
1 Apr 10
Im afraid of other people's expectations, im afraid of frogs, im afraid of being the topic of any conversation, im afraid of my friends leaving me. Those are the typical things that im afraid of,But im trying my best to cope with all of my fears by facing them head on. But i have to admit up to now im still having a hard time trying to beat them up
@setsuna26 (2751)
• Philippines
1 Apr 10
Yes literally im afraid of frogs any kind, i just cant stand the sight of any frog, makes me want to run away or i want to just disappear when i see one. Funny but its true i even want to seek professional help just because of this fear of mine