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Why is it I seem to have bad luck in this area? Okay, I'm having a little bit of trouble coming to a final decision on a recent matter at hand. I knew the guy i'm in love with for two years, through out those two years our relationship had been compremised many times. First we were both in relationships when we met. Then I was jumping back and forth between him and my ex I couldn't make up my mind. Finally it ended in my friend disapearing for 10 months. During that time I was back with my ex. I found my self missing my friend alot and finally my ex told me he thought I needed time to finally chose and never look back. Oddly we accidentially started talking again, it was like just some random spur of the moment thing. I happened to sign in on my old msn, he started messaging me. After we talked for a lil while I had told him how I felt another 2 months later we got together. The first half of the time we were back together, it was instantly back to the way things were we had no problems never fought, and were just so damn happy we were finally going to make it. thats when hell struck again. He tried to get to me got an hour away and was refused to cross the border. I wanted to get to him but I couldn't, he was stuck on the other side with nothing and no way home. He finally found a place to stay with a relative but things there are so stressful for him, he was putting up with it, it was breaking my heart that he was putting up with it because he should have been with me. We started fighting alot. Then last saturday, he said he needed time to think and that he thought it best if we split up because he didn't wanna continue to hurt us. Of course I was devastated. Then he flipped around to his usual behavior when something doesn't go right in a relationship. I seen much of it back during his first relationship he was in when I met at him. He played the blame game, telling everytone who would listen he was tired of me and my crap. Had ppl trashing me and gave out my personal phone number. Yeah the trust went out the window. His usual behavior however is this and it lasts a month or longer usually. He shocked myself and a few others when just hours later, however he messages me, admitting his wrong admitting that he made a mistake he thought this would be better etc. And I told him I was disapointed in him he claimed that was worse to him then anger, and he says he will do anything to regain the trust that was broken. Trouble is my trust is broken and idk if I should believe him and get through this or walk away. It does make me think that he might be honest about the fact that he loves me, where he did something totally out of character for him. That being admmiting what he did, but I donno whether to believe hes gonna do things to change his ways or if its a ploy to just get me back....I'm at a loss. Though this guy has also given me many chances, and thats something he never does.