I am living in the Twilight Zone.......

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Ever feel like you are living in the Twilight Zone? Things just aren't as they seem and people are acting bizarre and weird? People you know and love? I am exhausted. I just can't cope with it anymore. I have lived here with my daughter and her two kids for many years. My daughter has bi-polar disorder. Her manic phase usually only came around about once a year or so and lasted for two to three weeks. This usually either just happens or is brought on when she changes a medication. She also has a learning disability so over the years I have tried to help her do certain things she just doesn't do well or can't seem to get the concept. I finally got her going to a counselor and she did have a PSR worker. But these people can't really do much when all she will tell them is all is okay when it really isn't. So, I try to get ahold of them and tell the true deal. My daughter recently changed her medication and this threw her into a manic phase. She acts like an immature teenager and is very neglectful of her son who is seven. She would just up and leave in the evenings and leave him there and alot of times she hadn't bathed him or given him his medication. She is also verbally abusive to him. She is drinking and using herbal recreationally. If my granddaughter asks her something or reminds her of something my daughter goes into this fit of anger and accuses my granddaughter of telling her she is stupid or that she is a rotten mom. My granddaughter is six months pregnant and doesn't need this kind of upset. It is horrible to listen to them argue. My input does no good and so I stay out of it. About a week ago my daughter informed us she is moving and will be out of here by the first of May and doesn't care if my granddaughter and/or I rot in H$ll. So, we are scrambling to find financial help to get us a place because we cannot afford to stay here. I exhausted all the community places and got very little of what I needed. I have sent emails to my friends online and was so grateful to hear back from afew and get their help. It warms my heart to know I have such good hearted and sweet friends on here. And I really am in an emergency situation or I would never of asked them for help. I am so exhausted and depressed. I sleep at some point in the night but never really feel rested and my granddaughter is feeling the same way. This is horrible. To live with your family and feel so split. I have no one to turn to for help. My good friend that I have known since I was in junior high school lives in Texas and is in the same boat just with MORE kids to care for. I am beside myself(I always love that expression)I don't know what to do and any information i am getting here locally I am looking into but has not been much help. What am I going to do? Little or no money and a baby on the way. Sounds like an old western tune doesn't it? How can a person continue to think positively when things get so bad and the time just keeps passing. I can't let my granddaughter be homeless and the first will be here quickly. I am on SSD and have been since 2006 so money is very low. I have severe depression and meds don't work. I also have anxiety attacks but have been able to find some medication that helps that. I just can't cope with this anymore. I need money and place for her to bring her baby home to. Her boyfriend is a louse. So, if any of you have any ideas or have some help you could put forth i would sure appreciate hearing from you. You can PM me and I will give you any other info you need. I guess I need my Mylot friends right now as I know others have felt this same way in the past months on here.