How would you feel...?
By nadizzle
@nadizzle (5)
United States
May 4, 2010 3:09pm CST
I've been literally kicked down by my husband! A few years ago ,my husband confessed that he had slept with a known homosexual in my town . Let alone this person loved bragging about it,but I had to listen to other people asking me why would I want to stay with my husband ,knowing he slept with a man ? Well to be honest, I don't even know the answer to that mess! I try and convince myself that it was because he is still in the "experimenting" stage of his life,but even I'm not believing that either anymore. I'm scared to find out that his preference is men. That would really mess up what little self-esteem I already don't have. It just makes feel like I've failed at being a sensual woman and wife.I think I shouldn't, take this personally .I had my suspicions before we got married . I think I should of went with my gut instinct instead of following my NOW broken heart:( How would you feel or has this scenario happen to anyone else...male or female ?
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7 responses
@ladymog (25)
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5 May 10
i really feel for you , i can't imagine how i would ever feel in your situation . I only hope he is aware of the pain he is causing you . It's not about him experimenting , he has violated your trust and love . It's very easy for other people to question the whys and wherefores of your relationship and comment on you staying with him , but they aren't the ones who are being put through the turmoil . your head must be in a very strange and bad place and i really wish that there was a right answer to all of this for you . Don't think it's about you as a woman , i'm sure there are plenty of other men who see you in the street and think you are gorgeous . Keep the thought that you are not the one who has done anything wrong and always remember that you will be the one to come out of this with your head held high .
@getbiswa2000 (5544)
• India
5 May 10
Hi,
I am terribly shocked to hear about your incident. It makes me upset to think about those persons who being uncertain themselves put others' life into great uncertainties. I just can't help saying this that people often forget that their decision is gonna affect not only them but also all the people who are related to them in some way. Now this is really a selfish way of being in a society. I have met indecisive people like this and they can do nothing but inspire fear and hatred to their relations. I really didn't mean to say all this but I really couldn't help, I feel so furious about it.
Dear, I think its time for you to play a different role. Its time to rewind the tape and find a personality that was not about being sensual or being ideal wife. There are definitely other roles that a lady has to play in her life. There are better and loftier purposes of life. I am quite sure that you had some other aspects, good sides actually that were buried and left behind. Lets uncover them. If your entire life is spent in being sensual lady, or being an ideal wife, then when will you have time to be just You?
I hope you understand what I mean. I will not ask you not to worry or not to cry, as I believe these are very necessary steps towards a more wider realization. But lets not forget that if your heart is broken none will bear the pain for you. It is your responsibility and yours alone to mend it.
Thanks
God bless you
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@sjohnson628 (3197)
• United States
6 May 10
I would feel like total crap if this happened to me and I know one thing I would not allow it to happen for one second more! Once a cheater always a cheater. They will never change! Yes you should of went with your gut feeling and not married him. I am sure there are many men out there who would not cheat on you and would kiss your feet and spoil you! You will never find the one who was meant for you with that loser by your side! You are probably just afraid of starting over maybe? Or being alone? If so that is sad. Sometimes people looking ion from the outside see the whole picture while the ones in the picture only see themselves....Hope you get yourself out of this mess and take a good look at yourself because you are a beautiful person who deserves so much better than this! I could go on and on but I hope some of the responses here besides mine will change your choice in men!! Good luck!
@Ritchelle (3790)
• Philippines
11 May 10
stay with him for i think if you really want to leave him you wouldn't even have time to think about anything (like asking, no offense) anymore. peace .
@unique16 (1531)
• United States
4 May 10
Hello nadizzle,
This is hard decision for you. I really feel for you. His lover bragging about it. That is cruel. Do you have children? If not I would take some time to yourslef and really think about what you want for yourself in the long run. Yes, you are living with a broken heart but hearts do mend over time. There is no quick fix here. It seems like your husband still wanst to carry on the affair and if that is case I would seperate from him for awhile if you have the fincial means to do this. Can you stay at friends house for a weekend or week? Do you have someone in your family you can talk to like brother or sister to hear there opinion... yes it will be hard to listen since you still love him... it is hard letting go... you will ache for a while but think... did you really want to married to homosexaul or heterosexual person? I hope this helps.
Sincerley Unique16
@umit_umit (1984)
• India
5 May 10
well i thnk that you should leave your husband as you are sincire and your husband is disloyal!
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