Anyone (else) here who is responsible for the death of an other person?

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How do you feel? Do you think about it everyday? Have you left it behind you? I was in an accident a few years back, driving... when a motorcycle (large one, racing type) hit my car on the side door... Both the car and the bike went up in the air a few inches?, car rotated some 180 degrees, the biker went over the car... it was instant for him. The bike hit us (my fiance was sitting next to me), in the middle of the 2 doors and a bit to the right. Had it been directly on my door, experts say he would have driven over us... If you see a photo of my car, you will understand why. I was in hospital and intensive care... 2 months, they didn't tell me about the biker, until after the surgeries... I didn't walk for 6 months, on a bed most of the time. 2,5 years later, I had a surgery to "fix" some things... I am fine right now I think, most of the problems haven't shown up... and I am hoping they don't. Weather changes, too much pressure or too much strength on the leg make me hurt, but I guess it's better than on the other side of this world. I leave a normal life... but then again, nothing is the same. There are more details that I don't want to bore you with. So I'll get straight to it... Anyone that had something like this? I can't imagine many different situations, most would be extreme and I'd like to keep crimes out of the discussion of course. So if you had a similar experience, or someone died because of you, or because you where there, because you did something, then what do you think about? What do you think of every morning? What do you think everytime it hurts or you remember the incident? I don't want to say what's on my mind yet... I think I am dealing with it, a lot different than other people... I just don't know if I am strong, stupid or black-hearted...