new or use?? MEN

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I was wondering what it be like to search down a new men and spend time with them. But I come to realize now that some on whom i choose that are new to me, are not the good men i thought they be. you would wish and enjoy every moment you could with them or tease them and do it all. But when you recall when you first met the question that was ask was if you got a gf? he said he didnt, and well i accepted. but as month gone by he finally had me at his place chilling and welcome another woman and it was his girlfriend, that blew me away in my eyes.. i was speechless and i rose with steam in my body,, jealous and anger rose in me.. and it ask another gurl to tellme who she was and later find out that his gf for the last two month when i just thought i had him wrap around my finger and now not any more.. i ask him why did you lie to me? he tell me the same thing i am not lieing she is my sister friend.. sure whatever.. he was a drunk and high but i could of knock his nuts out.. i walk away and it hurt me because i didnt want to be use by another men.. so it hunt me now.. why is it that i choose a new man they use me .. so am i label use like a use book. or like a use doll.. i dont know i do question alot in my head because it hurts me and all make me madder when men tell a lie. But when i meet men from my past friendship with them it strange how we break loose or dont talk much and then they come back running to me when i dont bother them.. this is another men in my life i thought of him dearly and now i gave up on him and he back and hollering at me like it nothing and we are friends.. but it tickle me now wondering what have i done to have him crawling back to me and really i have done nothing. he no new man to me or use men to me. he just himself.. with all i been thru in life i dont know what to think of men anymore as of and dont want nothing to do with them sometime but i cant avoid the one who were my best friends for some time. so do you continued to search for man that is new or used... or wait for a new package man to come at your door?