Ever felt like you hate life? That's how I feel right now!
@jewelenterprises (1996)
Australia
May 16, 2010 6:20pm CST
Sometimes life just gets to a stage where you're so fed up with feeling stressed that you hate life and just want to hide away for a while... like curl up in a ball in a corner and not come out till all the 'bad things' go away... yup, I'm regressing to childhood LOL.
That's how I'm feeling right now. I've known for years that I suffer from depression, have suffered it ever since I was a child/teenager according to a therapist. Chemical imbalance in the brain is a hereditary thing in the female members of my family, my mothers mother, my mother, myself and my sister and my two daughters suffer aswell. Males experience it to but to a lesser extent (guess all those female hormones aggravate the issue).
What I'd like to know is whether you have ever felt that way and what you do about it.
Please, don't tell me to think positive and pull myself up by the boot straps etc. That's what people who have never experienced true depression advise or those who refuse to take their own depression seriously. Note that I say true depression, by which I mean depression caused by a chemical imbalance. I spent years doing this, trying to be 'strong' and positive, refusing to give in but the depression just got worse and worse until I simply wasn't coping any more.
The fact is, I'm already a very positive person who also has faith in God. Sometimes my faith and positive attitude just aren't enough to stop me feeling horrible and like I just need a break from stress.
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@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
17 May 10
I tend to find that having a good laugh works wonders. My Mum was on a downer today (on the telephone) and it's usually HER cheering ME up...but it was the other way round. She apologised for being that way and I told her not to be so silly, it happens to us all.
Do you have any funny DVDs to watch? I really like films such as "Planes, Tranes and Automobiles" because they're not in any hurry to finish.
That's the only advice I can give you, I'm afraid and I hope you're feeling more like yourself very soon my friend.
@BL4CK_W0LF (214)
• United States
17 May 10
Hey, you copied my "laugh works wonders" thing... although it did take me ten minutes to type up my response... I thought first!!!
I'll let this go, this time...
PS: I loved Steve Martin in that one
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
I have to agree with you there, laughing about things does help. I often say that you have to laugh about life or you'd probably cry!
There is just sooooooo much on my plate right now that I'm struggling to cope and I'm having trouble envisioning the end of the stress.
@cream97 (29086)
• United States
17 May 10
Hi, jewelenterprises. It is go great to hear from you! I can see that you are not doing so well. We all have gotten sad. I have been depressed so many times in my life. For many different reasons. I feel like, just moving to another country and starting a new life all over again. That way no one will find me and know me. You came across my mind last week. I am sorry that you are depressed. But you are not alone. I get so fretful over this goal that I want to accomplish in my life. I will worry about just going for it. And I get so nervous wondering what will happen. When I feel depressed, I go to God and I will pray. I pray for peace and a sound mind. I will also tell him everything about how I am feeling. Jewel, if I am depressed, I won't really know until I get treated for it. I know that I am a very busy woman that has so much on her plate to take care of. I feel like I am running on a marathon. It is best to pray to God about everything that you are experiencing. He is the one that will make it all better for you. He can bring peace to your mind, heart and soul. He is always with you even when you are feeling down in the dumps. You are not alone. He loves you. Don't be sad, be glad that you are alive and well. That is what really matters. I will pray for you. And I hope that God can shine his light upon you as you go through your depression point. Take care.
I can see that you are not doing so well. We all have gotten sad. I have been depressed so many times in my life. For many different reasons. I feel like, just moving to another country and starting a new life all over again. That way no one will find me and know me. You came across my mind last week. I am sorry that you are depressed. But you are not alone. I get so fretful over this goal that I want to accomplish in my life. I will worry about just going for it. And I get so nervous wondering what will happen. When I feel depressed, I go to God and I will pray. I pray for peace and a sound mind. I will also tell him everything about how I am feeling. Jewel, if I am depressed, I won't really know until I get treated for it. I know that I am a very busy woman that has so much on her plate to take care of. I feel like I am running on a marathon. It is best to pray to God about everything that you are experiencing. He is the one that will make it all better for you. He can bring peace to your mind, heart and soul. He is always with you even when you are feeling down in the dumps. You are not alone. He loves you. Don't be sad, be glad that you are alive and well. That is what really matters. I will pray for you. And I hope that God can shine his light upon you as you go through your depression point. Take care.@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
18 May 10
Thank you cream, I really do appreciate that! I mean, I know that in a couple of weeks the issues that are causing me such stress now will have changed (though possibly replaced by others). It's just that sometimes I feel overwhelmed by it all.
@daliaj (5674)
• India
17 May 10
I was in the verge of a depression two weeks ago. I felt that nothing was moving and my life was standing stationary. I was trying to move to the place where my husband lived, but I kept having problems related to my visa. I was very sad. Also, I tried for a job change, but it didn't work well. All my friends shifted to new jobs with good salary hikes. So, I was a little depressed about my life. But, somehow I handled the situation and now things started falling on my way. I got the news that my visa will be ready soon and I am excited to move in with my husband.
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
I have to admit that is the one things that helps me cope with everything... the transience of situations. I know that two weeks from now the things that are currently bugging me will have changed (or some of them at least). Yes, they may have been replaced by other concerns but the actual situations change constantly.
@p3ks626 (6538)
• Philippines
17 May 10
I dont hare life entirely. Just a part of it cause there are things happening to me these days that sometimes I feel like I cant do anything about it. I love most parts of my life and all that but there are just some concerns I have especially with my job. That the part of my life I really hate these days cause there are so many things going around especially when it comes to things that are happening in my work place.
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
Yes, a feeling of helplessness doesn't help with our moods.
As far as my employment goes, I'm lucky enough to have a secure job as a check out operator in a major grocery store. People are unlikely to stop buying groceries and I don't have to worry about having my hours cut either since I'm permanent. So I'm thankful and grateful for that.
It's my personal life that causes me stress. Not only do I work 30 hours per week but I have to do most of the housework because my partner is chronically ill and unable to contribute to the household, of course, I also have to look after my partner. On top of that my nine year old daughter is a handful (mainly because she hangs out with the 'wrong crowd' at school), my older daughter and son who live with their father both have emotional issues, plus I'm having issues with my own health.
I know that compared to some people, my lot is 'easy' but it's all a matter of perception isn't it? Doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Sometimes it all gets on top of me and I just want to escape.
@yirachel (10)
• China
17 May 10
I have been suffered from depression last week for a whole week.I dont want to do anything,and nothing can make me happy.I felt so bad.the i realize the depression may be caused by too many computer and TV.So i made up my mind to do something else,such as learning jazz and go shopping and so on.And i plan to buy a earphone and a book of world expo these days.That make me feels better.
so keep yourself occupied and do not think of the depression may help you get out of this...
wish you luck~~~
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
Depression is no fun regardless of whether it lasts a day or a year. Unfortunately, mine has been going for years. Most times I just cruise along despite it, but occasionally (like at the moment), it just all seems too much and I feel like screaming.
Hmmm, maybe there's an idea... go out into the middle of nowhere where there is no-one to hear me and just scream my lungs out LOL.. that might just relieve the stress!
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
Personally, I find it hard to get it out of my mind in order to achieve that feeling of peace.
@jugsjugs (12967)
•
17 May 10
I call the feeling of being down.When i am feeling really down i try to keep myself busy as that way it takes your mind off alot of the things that are making you feel really down.I hate that feeling aswell as i hate having to make excuses for why i can not see people as i do not want them to know why i am feeling like it.
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
The only problem I've found with doing that is that at some point you get tired of all the running around and have to stop... and then the implications hit you again.
And I know what you mean about avoiding people... it's a case of the age old saying, 'Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive'. We're trying to protect others from our negativity at the cost of further guilt and negativity.
@Cutie18f (9546)
• Philippines
17 May 10
I am sorry to hear that you feel that way. Personally, no, I have never felt that bad. There had been a lot of instances wherein life seems to be in the rough much of the time but I just took all of life's beatings as part of living. The feeling of hatred will only make everything worst. So I do my best to divert my attention into something more productive. Sitting in one corner or curling in bed is very unproductive. That's a lot of time wasted and I know that I could perform many tasks if I use that time wisely. In other words, I do not give way for such feelings to take over me. I sort of try to control the situation and not be controlled by it. Perhaps it's my personality. I must be a very strong person to be able to do this.
@BL4CK_W0LF (214)
• United States
17 May 10
Of course. I always feel like this... I guess when i get older I'll grow out of that. When i was a teen (well, excluding 19), I felt like that typical angst-ridden individual. Now, not so much. I find myself not caring about things now... err... not thinking about them... I dunno how to say it.
Hormonal anger is sumn to wave aside, i guess. but real deep emotional stuff like this can be self destructive... I dont want to destroy myself!
I try to maintain myself and my sanity. I usually do this by listening to music or getting a good laugh. I know you said not to cheer you up err whatever, but laughing (not forced and not fake) will do wonders. I love to watch stand up (good ones anyway). I also sleep a lot...................................
Its great that you have Faith. we all get stressed. Sometimes we need to vent and find a way to deal with all this crapdiddly life gives us.
me positive? Not blindly. Not overly-optimistic or unopportunistic. I'm more of a realist i guess.
Peace
@jewelenterprises (1996)
• Australia
17 May 10
I wouldn't guarantee you'll get over it as you get older. If it's a chemical imbalance then it's just something you're susceptible to. That doesn't necessarily mean you have to worry about it, just be aware.
I often tell people not to be ashamed of going to the doctor and asking for help (i.e. antidepressants). There is no shame in depression. I made that mistake, I thought I was just emotionally weak and was scared to admit it. In fact, the opposite is true, emotionally I'm too strong for my own good.
I'm not saying this applies to you but yeah, suffering from depression does NOT mean a person is emotionally weak. It's caused by that chemical imbalance. Sometimes it can occur then go away within weeks, other times it can last months or even years.
Oh, and I don't mind being 'cheered up'. It's just the flippant and shallow responses that don't take the reality of depression into account that I find frustrating.
Personally, I love a challenge but I think sometimes life can be a little TOO challenging and I just want a breather.
