a part of me died.

Yeah right rosie, no one knows how I felt about this. Not even my close friends because they kept saying it's okay. But the truth is, it's not that easy to accept. But no other choice was left for me but to accept it. thank you rosie! be blessed! :)

God works in so many mysterious ways, and I am all sure that God has all the Plans for You, and your Family.... Keep the Faith... and continue Loving and Hoping for Blessings that are yet to come....

Your close friends probably say that, to try and console you, and it is probably the only thing that can say. I hope that you can find some kind of release through this site, is has certainly helped me in my hours of need. You will find a lot of great friends here, and people who you can talk to through discussions, trust me on that one. I have made some great friends here. Point is there is no bias here, so whatever advice you need, or however you feel and you just want to talk, you can be assured to know that you will get support. Take Care

Very well said, attente. I hope you manage to get through day by day easily. Not easy to go through it all, but can be done in our own time. I prefer private grieving too..

Yes, you do make sense. If I'm right, you are moving on and having the positivity to do it. All the best to you, attente and you are definitely welcome.

Hi zed. Thank you again! Of course with the help of my friends here as well as my mylot friends, I able to enjoy life without him. Not without him exactly as I he's just here in my heart, he dwells in my heart. And he will be there forever, always. With that, he will be loved and remembered always. When that God's time comes, meeting the new guy, the first guy would still be in my heart. But he will just make some space for the new guy or maybe my heart's capacity will increase right? Hhahaha! Am I making sense here? lols. thanks zed! hehe. :)

Hello. It sounds like you have a very good attitude about all of this. Hope it all works out well for you. All in good time.

Yes, me too although I call it fate.

Thank you celticeagle! I think we really have to learn to accept everything God is giving you. be blessed! :)

thanks for the prayer hardworkinggirl! I'll pray and thank God for the new friends I have here in mylot. thank you, really! be blessed! :)

Absolutely, the world goes on no matter what and or how we are feeling. It still doesn't make us feel better or great. But you are doing the right things, you are keeping him alive in your heart. Where no matter how many more blessings, happiness and or loves in have in your family. He will always have that special place in your heart. You are still grieving, and that is okay. There is absolutely no time limit as to when the grieving stops. A love that strong, you may never completely stop grieving. That's okay too... One day and only God knows when that day will be, that you will notice you are no longer grieving. That is okay! So as long as there is no guilt. This person that has left will not like to know that you have stopped the world. He wants you to be happy, and that is a good thing. So take all the time you need, as you and only you know when it is time to stop grieving. It is also absolutely okay that you keep him alive within your heart, mind and soul. Good luck to you, I will say a prayer for you tonight and pray that you continue to be blessed as the special caring person that you are.

Yeah right, he is really funny. But sinchan's not aired now here in our country.. I hope he'll be back.. I miss sinchan and carmen, his mother! HAHHAH!! anyways, thank you sirzhang! everything will be alright. be blessed! :)

Hi sirzhang! First and foremost, thanks for the add my friend. Your picture is funny. You're from china right? that guy on your picture, sinchan, is very famous here in our country.. He, being so silly, makes millions of people laugh through his stupid actions. I miss watching that series. Well, that was 10 years ago.. :) Anyways, thank you for the story.. It really is a touching story. But I think that hurts more since they are married and the old woman is used to his kisses. Hmmm. or I think, it's better this way, we're on the same shoes since pain is beyond measurable.. :) well, I'm still young. Life has still lots to offer! be blessed! :)

Yeah, I am from China. I also love sinchan. He is so funny. Even right now, I often take some time to watch that series. BTW, Where there is a will, there is a way. Everything will be ok. Good luck.

waaa. did your spouse die? or your fiance? gf/bf? sorry to hear that. i know you know how I feel. But we really have to keep moving my friend! be blessed! :)

it was my mother. i am sorry to hear u too attente, i still keep moving and i hope i can meet her someday somewhere . how do u handle all the feelings to keep moving? maybe we can share something here

Thank you so much msfranco! yeah right, really have to believe that I might not see him but he's just around. He dwells in my heart. He might have left a hole in my heart, but I can fill them with good memories. Time is a good hear and God has better plans for me, that's for certain. be blessed msfrancisco! :)

thank you masfrancisco! I am praying for that dear, that one day, all the pain will be taken away, leaving nothing but the happy memories. I know God hears me, He's just looking for the perfect time to grant my wish. hehe. be blessed! ;)

with the kind of coping you have --you are already into the healing process and later on be happy enough to accept the fact...the reality that he's already gone (physically) but will always remain in your heart! stay happy as he will be happy too!

Sorry to hear that rachelle. Even if he's just an ex, I know it hurts. You have lots of memories with him.. And I know you miss the things that you both do. I feel the same. But we have to accept though. God has better plans. thanks rachel! :) Aspenger is something like autism right? What differs him from others? Not familiar with it. hehe. be blessed! :)

I'm a day late, hehe. thanks hex, I feel better now actually. Yes, I always consider that. I know God has better plans for me. I know in His time. I'll meet a new guy who will love me as much or even more as the first guy did. I believe in God and I believe in His plans, everything is so perfect. So instead of blaming him, like people do, I have to thank Him for lending me that guy even for a short time. At least that made me happy. thank you God. and thank you friends. thank you hex! Hugs, attente

Yeah right, I know he won't be happy seeing me having a miserable life because of the loss. His will always be remembered and loved. As a matter of fact, he dwells in my heart. He's just here. :) thanks tomitomi!

Hi sweetloveforever! thank you dear! I know he wants nothing but my happiness. :) I'm happy. I just thank God that once in my life, have felt such happiness because of that guy.. You seem inlove, from your name, message, and blog. stay in love dear! be blessed!

I agree with you memnon! That's why I am so happy to be here in mylot. Everyone hears me, giving their advices. I know in God's time, I'll be totally healed! thank you! be blessed! :)

Yes ladygator, it's really hard to accept that he's gone. But as they say, time is a good healer. and I believe in that. I don't have to forget him or get over him. I just have to accept that God had taken him away, he isn't beside me, but he's in my heart. always. be blessed lady! :)

Thank you kun! :) I agree, have to move on. Of course he won't be forgotten, he's in my heart, always. I have to be happy, at least once in my life I had him who made me happy sooooo much! Another thing, I agree with "It's better to have him mentally than having him beside me yet doesn't love me".. The latter hurts more I suppose. be blessed kun! :)

Hi yresh, Yeah right, God might had taken him away from me, but only physically for he's still here in my heart. He'll always be there, dwelling there. thanks for the concern friend. be blessed! :)

Yes, time is indeed a healer. As far as I remember, it hurts more 2 years ago. I'm okay now, but sometimes, I can't help but be hurt be the loss. But have to accept it though. Have to move on, God has better plans for me. be blessed sir! :)

"His heart beat might have stopped, but it continues to echo in your heart" Very nice line! I couldn't agree more! Yes, he dwells in my heart, always. :) be blessed!