Who am I ???

United States
July 4, 2010 5:51pm CST
i tried to kill myself .... I jumped off a two story building to a certain death but i didn't die..... doctors dont know y i survived but i did only one thing about that though..... i cant remember a single thing.... i sit down and look into my mirror and dont know who im seeing.... its like im trapped in someones body....... All i can remember is the jump.... and then i was in the hospital unable to move.... when i cheeked my history on my computer i found this site and read some of the recent blogs i had written.... so i was just wondering if anyone here knew me ????? and y did i try to kill myself ???
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9 responses
@satz0249 (125)
• India
5 Jul 10
Dont try to kill your self.. there is a long way to go in life... when things must have to do is over the automatically it'll be the time for you to leave the earth ...till then you should be alive thats fate... life is to live not to kill yourself
@greygoo (795)
• Philippines
5 Jul 10
i'm sorry but i don't know you and i most definitely do not know why you tried to kill yourself. sorry if i'm not of any help. but please don't kill yourself. reading your post really made me sad alright. i've been through hard times too. if it makes you feel better, remember that you are not alone in the struggle to go on day by day.
@babyEj (1522)
• Philippines
5 Jul 10
hi keirster... I don't know you but I am interested to become your friend, so I add you up. Don't worry, if you are, that somebody may know you because your intention to kill yourself was a result of deep (down) emotion and we or nobody is in the liberty to judge you. Every one of us have done mistakes and still vulnerable to commit mistakes. Love yourself as God created you beautifully. Hope to be your friend not because of something but because you are you. Add me as your friend..smile babyEj
• India
5 Jul 10
oh my gosh pls dont try it again . how are you feeling now, are you able to walk, how do you look . we all love you and god loves you above all so stay confident and think of him you ll out of this suffering in no time . for he ll give you the power to survive
@mspitot (3824)
• Philippines
5 Jul 10
welcome to mylot! please don't do it again. i hope you find you you are and be happy with what you are now.
@kodukodu84 (1569)
• Malaysia
5 Jul 10
Hi keirster, welcome to MyLot. I'm really sorry to hear for what happened. I have to say, I don't know you as well and this is my first time responding to your post. All I can say is as soon as you start asking yourself for who you are and looking for the answer, that is a positive one instead of trying to kill yourself for the second time. So, well done! A lot of people out there will listen, and MyLotters will response to you too, you may find something very useful and inspirational here. I'm always happy to be friend. Have a nice day and happy mylotting :-)
@doormouse (4599)
4 Jul 10
you were obviously very unhappy and confused,but there is a reason why you lived,you may not know it yet but you will,be gratefull you survived as life is precious,maybe you could see a hypnotist,maybe they could find out why you were so unhappy
@ascof12 (23)
• Philippines
5 Jul 10
You tried to kill yourself because your unhappy and not satisfied. You still dont know who you are and what do you want to make you happy. No one can tell you who you are, and no one can make yourself too. Only you have the ability to control yourself. You should first accept everything you have, accept your self, your stability in life, your appearance, all things surrounded you. Love them all and appreciate. How can you be able to be loved when you, either, dont love yourself. Try to appreciate evrything existed in this world and always remember that everything has a reason to happen, has a reason for their existence. Just believe in God, trust him, let him guide you and you will be able to find yourself on your own. God knows everything, remember that.
@amrddy (215)
• Philippines
5 Jul 10
Why did you try to kill yourself? Don't you have a family or friends that you can share with your problem or whatever is bothering you? My friend life is too short and who are we to even shorten it? I guess God has still something in store for you because you didn't die. However I will advise you to seek help from a psychologist or psychiatrist to find out what is bothering you. Take care.