i lost my dog today

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today's so sad. it was supposed to be this happy day because of my achievement in my driving lessons. but after i got home from them, i found my dog dead in their yard at the back of our house. when i saw him not moving, i wanted to think positively. but i really had a bad feeling because he wasn't responding to any of my calls. it was pretty weird because the other dogs were so quiet, they didn't even bark when i was calling out xander's name. then i told them to go wake xander up and play with him, that's when one of the other dogs started barking, then they just all barked. i told my mom that xander wasn't moving, she told me that maybe he's just sleeping. so i asked her why were there flies going around him. that's when she started to panic as well. when we looked through the door hole, we saw that there was dried up blood by his head. earlier, i wanted to think that it was just some dried up rust. my mom called my brother to check on xander. but it was way too late. when he touched him, my brother started crying. xander's body was already rigid. he cried so much because it felt like xander died alone. i didn't go out to see him for the last time. my brother said that his eyes were still open. i don't want to see him that way. thinking about it still makes me cry. just the other day, i answered a discussion here about our dogs. it was about dog names. i described all of our eight dogs there. and i said, the twins:xander and willow. i know that it is not uncommon for dogs to have twins, but these two dogs they seem to know that they are twins. they are together all the time. they sleep side by side and when one is not there, the other one looks for the other. i'm sorry if i'm ranting. i just really, really feel sad about this.