If given a chance to reborn, what's your wish or want to change?

I'm very sorry to hear your situation... I believe some relationships are just un-fixable. I don't know what are the chances of your relationship with your mother to be improved...but think about this: not everyone's life is perfect. We all have imperfections and the things that we have, other might not have, and I know how it feels to be envious of the things that others have that you don't. Everyone thinks I have a good life because of this and because of that - but what people don't see are the things I lack of, and my ambitions and dreams that never came true (I don't know if I still even have hope ) - but anyway, I am still happy in general...maybe I'm not satisfied, (I think humans have no satisfaction anyway - we all want something else or something new after we get what we've wanted) but there are still things that I know I should be proud of and should be happy for. Maybe you're just missing those things in your life. Maybe you have to open your eyes a little more to see all the blessings that you already have. There's no guarantee that you'll never experience sadness anymore when you choose to be happy - but at least you can say to yourself at the end of the day, that you didn't waste your life feeling sorry and full of regrets just because you didnt' get the things you can't have.