Another heartbreak

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I just ended up with a 3 year relationship. I thought I won't be able to get over him but I did. I promised to myself that I will never ever let anyone hurt me that much.... too much of a promise... Here's our story: We met at work. We started as friends. It was amazing how two people can share a lot of things about themselves even if they just met. We enjoyed each other's company together with our friends. I find him nice and friendly. Most of the time, we talked about work and past experiences with our previous companies. We were just really friends until few weeks ago... Closeness. I don't know how it happened but we grew closer to each other. We started to share something about us. He gives advices and I listen. I looked up to him. I know that there is something already but I never entertained them because I am too afraid to be hurt again. But I guess it didn't work out. There was this moment when he was nibbling my ear and we just kissed. That is how it all started. I thought we'll give it a try. We had our moments together. We were both happy until our friends started to notice our closeness and when I was about to open my mouth to answer them, there were no words came out to me... maybe I want him to be the one to say it. I know that we were official and committed since we talked about it. Also, I trust him and I just don't see him a guy who would just left me hanging... So I asked him if we can tell them that we are together. That's when it all started to fall apart. Falling apart. Few days ago, we had an argument about "us". He didn't talk to me for few days and it hurt me so much until I can't take it anymore. We decided to talk. The first two words that I heard was... Sorry and Thank you. Sorry because he can't do this anymore and he needs to let go. My heart stops beating that time and I cried. Maybe because he knew what I've been through to get over someone then he would just let go without really trying. I didn't ask for a reason because he just couldn't give me one. He is not ready. I don't play games and he's a typical guy who just started having fun to be tied down in a relationship. I just walked away crying two nights ago. It hurts so much when you know that it's easy for him and not for me. My friends keep on telling me this should be easy since we didn't count months or years. I thought so too but I was wrong since I trusted that person and opened my heart again then he just left. I don't know how to end up this discussion but thanks for listening to me. I miss mylot...