Life is hard at the moment
By wongchoiyee
@wongchoiyee (7413)
Malaysia
July 18, 2010 5:01pm CST
I am happily lived in my childhood years until when I am 16. I met a bunch of friends who competes with me all the time whether it is for study, looks, and money as well.
They made me depressed when they trick me into another class and segregating themselves from me. ANd then they spread lies about me and now it has become a talk in my hometown.
I am regret knowing them can be such a good friends and at the same time I can't predict their tactics.
After more than 10 years managing with depression, am now 29, I meet failures whenever I work. I was treated badly by my boss. No one accompany me to lunch.
I am bored waiting for payday each month. I kept myself busy all the time not thinking about my past but every single free time I had, the memory will strike back.
Lately, I lost energy and become restless after coping with 4 hours work. I am diagnosed with endometriosis which cause me pain every month. I had to switch my fixed job to flexible job so that I can take leave whenever I want to go to the hospital. I know my battle with my life will soon be over and I am getting old day by day. I can feel it.
What I want is I want to live the rest of my life peacefully without any more crunches like when I was a teenager. That means I want to be able to stand up on my own without being bullied by anyone. I know this can be done if I am financially stable. But I am not. I am always lack of money and luckily my father still try his best to support me.
I just want to feel the flexibility of life because I am so stressed out. THe moment I am still searching for job. I know telemarketing is flexible but they also has target to meet each month. If you cannot meet the target you will be terminated. So what for I am looking for this kind of job?
I also want to start my own business but I don't have capital and its risky, you know? I just want to do some data entry which could earn me USD100 to USD200 each month and the project is permanent that means I will get jobs all the time.
I am single at 29 and don't have any financial burden like car loans and house loans and I just want myself to earn some money coz my dad is getting old and he alwyas stay overnight to make some money bring back home.
I am really desperate at the moment and hope mylotters can help me. Any suggestion is valuable and appreciated. Thank you. Have a good day! May God Bless U.
6 responses
@chona0912 (103)
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19 Jul 10
hello wrongchoiyee, i agree with you life is hard at the moment because of the global crisis but i don't think condition of life is always based on how friends treat you in the past or how people would badly treat you . I think you have also to pause and reflect why they would want to be far from you . Don't you think there are some problem with you . Maybe you're not an honest type of person , you're not adorable. You see we cannot see the total us because only those who see us judge us better . So think about it. Remember , those who appear in your life , whether to help your life , whether to help or to harm , are given by God. Meet all of them with a peaceful heart. But with a warrior's spirit. You will fail many times, but in failing , you will learn , and in learning , you will find your way. A positive outlook in life will make a difference. Being happy doesn"t mean everything is perfect . It means you have decided to see beyond the imperfection.
@jennyze (7028)
• Indonesia
19 Jul 10
I agree with Chona.
Wrongchoiyee, you need to ask yourself: why did your friends desert you, why people bullied you, why your boss did not like you? There must be reasons why did they do these to you.
I don't believe that it was only because of lack of money. I often lack of money too, but I know how to carry myself around people. I just be truthful to myself. I don't want people to see me as a rich woman (cause I am not), I don't want them to pity me, either. I have pride. I will try many things for things to work out and only when I am out of resources I admit a failure. I accepted a failure and started over again. Like Chona wrote, in failure you learn.
Judging from your story, you are a kind that quits easily. And you don't forget people mistakes even after years pass. Don't hold a grudge to people who hurt you, because it will only cloud your action in the present and future. Think positively and forgive whoever hurt you before. Focus on your future. Step by step. You don't have to be successful at a short time, but getting yourself forgetting the past is another success for you.
Good luck.
@akopoaysi (739)
• Philippines
19 Jul 10
hi! i suggest why dont you try cloudcrowd, microworkers and freelancer... those are websites that pays you to do task.. pm me if you want to more... :D
@dorisday1971 (5657)
• Philippines
19 Jul 10
You are still very young to have so much worries.
Enjoy life while you are still young.
Relax, maybe you need a little break for the meantime.
@mensab (4200)
• Philippines
18 Jul 10
yes, life is challenging. and i like your decision to confront it and do something about your current challenges. online jobs may be good to provide you some earnings. but i'd say other jobs may suit your situation. just be open to the opportunities. it is true that online some people earn a lot. but they invest some time for it to build their online assets and their skills. just build yourself for possible jobs that you like. goodluck.
@kingparker (9673)
• United States
19 Jul 10
Financially, I couldn't help you any, but I can suggest you to try your luck at microworkers.com, it is pretty flexible job, and you need to follow the direction that is all. Other social network such as sidetick, gather.com, and paymesocial.com can help a little help to you. I wish you the best luck man!
Me too, recently, I face so much financial burden, due to betrayal from my friend who I trusted. Now, he indebted me with the credit card that we suppose both to start a business adventure together. What a ** he is.
@Blogger101 (139)
• United States
19 Jul 10
It is very hard, but jsut get threw it. If your frinds are back stabers then leave there clan and join another. I bet you will feel better.
