I dont want to be pregnant anymore!!!!

I love being pregnant when im on my first trimester of pregnancy but because of having sensitive pregnancy when the second and third trimester comes I just always think that I must make sure that our baby will come out healthy and that will be the last but I love kids so I choose to have another baby again even I know that I will need to be in bed rest again for several months. Maybe it is boring to be in bed rest but when the baby comes out every thing is really worth it.

With my first son, I was fine all through my pregnancy. Of course, he was inside for less than full term...he was born 3 weeks before his due date. But considering I had to take hormone injections for 3 months, I'm surprised I enjoyed every bit of my pregnancy. With my second one, besides the scan showing that the cord was loosely would around his neck and being asked to get to the hospital as soon as I felt that he wasn't moving....I didn't have any problems. But this little fellow was full term (which I didn't expect at all) and I was so tired by the end of it all. I was tired of relatives calling each day asking if he was here yet...lol. And physically just tired carrying all the weight...I remember literally waddling around the place...just tired all the time. Fortunately I was at my mom's but I was also helping my older son with the school work he was missing out on. But generally speaking, I lover being pregnant:)

With my first son, I was fine up until the day I had him. It's very surprising too, since I had to give myself Heparin injections twice a day for blood clots. I didn't get very tired with him though. Now, I'm 36 weeks pregnant with my second son, and I've been having pre-term contractions for over 3 months! They are unbearable! I get them every few days and they last for 18+ hours! I've been SO ready to have this baby for well over a month. I still have 4 weeks left till my due date, but I'm having a growth scan on Wednesday to decide whether or not I'll shoot for my VBAC, or go ahead with a repeat c-section. As bad as I want my VBAC, I really don't want to have to wait any longer! :( I know that sounds terrible, but I am so exhausted. My feet are killing me every single night, I get out of breath so easily, I've been getting these terrible pains in my hip every since the baby turned, and on top of all that, the temperatures have been in the 100's for the past few weeks here, so it's been entirely too hot! I just want to be able to hold my baby in my arms, rather than in my belly! I feel horrible, because I loved being pregnant with my first son. But this time around, I just feel like I can't take it. Maybe it's because I'm busy chasing around my very energetic two year old now. I don't know?! Hopefully your pregnancy flies by for you! This last trimester has just been creeping along for me. :(